~MoSHi MoSHi~

testing testing

2010-02-03T11:35:00.000+08:00

haa kuar tak kat fb neh..

lame gile x update

2008-06-02T16:01:00.001+08:00

haha.. arituh aliza anto email... marah2 tanye apesal dh lame gile aku x update blog aku ni ha..

hahaha... sabau ek cik aliza... smpai masenye nti akan ku updatekan blog ku inihs...

tungguuuu tauuuuu... nyeh nyehhh

my trip to India.. nyeh2..

2008-02-12T08:58:00.000+08:00

okie dokies..

here are some pics that i have from my trip to india.. it was frm 24th June 07 - 1st July 07.. me n my lady boss-cum-my dearest sista; kak ida accompanied a troop of armies for their official trip to India.. we covered New Delhi, Mumbai & Bangalore..

This 1st pic is me n kak ida in front of the first monument we visited on d first day - The India Gate

Gamba ni sbenanye nk tjukkn 'rantai bunga' yg kitorg dpt upon arrival kat airport.. kan org2 India slalu pakai bunga ni ms ade pe2 keraian... so sbb nk tjuk cantik, i letak la kat ateh my bed.. kitorg dpt duk bilik suite tuh.. hehe agent kat sane upgradekan our room.. ade flat screen lg.. jgn jeles!

Nih plak gamba aku kat one of the building near the Parliament building (or was it d Presidential building - i updated so late tat i hv forgottn already la!)

--> notice d white-coloured taxi at my back?? d taxi yg slalu duk ade dlm filem2 hindustan tuh..classic indian heritage, man!! (kudos 2 kak ida for 'accidentally' took my pic wit d taxi in it..hehe) <---

4th pic - d lady boss wit d VIPs wives.. hehe.. this was my 1st ever experience in hvg 2 entertain wives of VIP - tho kak ida made much2 more contribution sbb she dh biase handle org2 besau neh la kan.. hehe n me mcm biase.. kuli jerk.. ekeke..

To be continued~~

Beijing.. continued..

2007-04-17T13:39:00.000+08:00

here r some more pics frm my trip...

since d grup yg i bwk is frm TNB Ipoh, so they all asked whether they can hv a luk at beijing's power grid.. So ni la Power Grid building (similar to our TNB HQ)... most office buildings in beijing are memanjang n wud not exceed 6 or 7 floors up.. (haha mcm documetary la plak ek..)

alrite, this is the 1st ever built mosque in beijing - The Niujie Mosque (sgt gumok kot aku dlm gmba neh!!)

okie dokie.. i took this pic by myself upon reaching Summer Palaces' peak.. nak amik gmba background sbenanye.. hehe cameragirl ter'over' la plak...

this is me in one of d pagodas at summer palace.. mak oiii jauhnye nak kene jalan kat sini... naik turon bukit, tangge, nak avoid xleh coz d bus is waiting on d other side of d mountain.. so nak x nak kene redah gak! pity to sum of my grup members yg x lrt tu...(tour leader pun naik semput tau!)

hehe.. ni lah gamba my room.. sharing with kak bedah.. d secretariat of d grup.. very spacious room, tp katil keras mcm tdo ateh papan pun ade.. hehehe... travel free, gasakle janji leh tdo!

my 1st trip to beijing

2007-04-15T23:44:00.000+08:00

Ahernye..tcapai gak cite2 nak jejak kaki ke bumi China... mmg x smpt nak update blog since came back frm beijing... pegi bulan mac 07, ni dah nak masuk aher thn 07, baru nak thegeh2 update... neways, better late then never,rite? this is d 1st pic i took upon arrival at Beijing Airport....sjjukkkk wooooo....

then this is d pic i took whilst we were on d bus... on our way to breakfast n then check into hotel...

hehehe.... biler tgk pokok2 kat lua... trase mcm kat dlm cite winter sonata pun ader... yela, it was end of autumn n nearing to winter...

this pic was taken when we went to the Acrobatic Show rite before dinner... simply amazing!!

the monument behind me is the national stadium of beijing... which is about to be overshadowed by the bird's nest stadium.. hehehe... tgkla..tembamnye tuan punye kamera n modelnye...

mmg best...best sgt2...ni plak gamba d 'sexy ladies' of TNB Ipoh, Perak...hehehehe...

bestest bday bash...evaa!!!

2007-04-07T22:09:00.000+08:00

well...its saturday..7th April 2007..my born day...yayyyy!!

haha..it sorta started wif a boring, tiring working saturday...got a group of armies to KK n Zamboanga on Monday..so kene prepare all out la kan...suddenly in d middle of meeting ngan bosses, my phone bunyik sms...(time tu dah kul 1 pm..perut dh bkeroncong seh..tapi tpakse tahan gak..haha) ...bile i mtk excuse to go to toilet (pdhal nak pi tgk sms)...tgk2 i got 1 sms frm kak aNNe n abg Yat..asking me to go out for lunch...huhu..btape gundah gulanyenye hati ni...so dgn sedihnye tpakse lah reply "kak N...katy xleh nak kua kot...meeting x abis lg ni...tapi if u guys nak amik brg yg u ol kirim kat beijing tu, u ol dtgla, i'll just drop it kejap downstairs.."

then suddenly kak aNNe replied "alaaa...bising lagila abg yat ni ha...mane xnye...adik dia sorang neh asyik bz ajerk....arituh dah postpone..ni postpone lagi..." --alamak...serbe slhnyeee....xleh jadi ni....gotta think of sumtinh...

and so this happened.."kak ida, can i be excused during this lunch hour? ade lunch date ar..membe nak blanje makan..pls??" then she go talk to her dad; d big boss...n guess wat he said "oooooo....hari ni u're bday ya?? okey..go lah..but must come back to finish all this.." --yayyyyyy!!!

so then i went to lunch at tepi tasik (tgh2 panas terik okey) haha...tapi we ol duk bwh pokok...they bought kfc for me and asked me to tgu kat bwh pokok..we ol slalu lepak kat situ dlu2 bg ikan n tuntung roti...so i pun duk la smbil replying sms frm my fwenz yg wish my bday when suddenly...........................

"happy birthday to you...happy birthday to you...happy birthday to kathy...happy birthday to youuuu" ---- aaaaaaaaa abg yat wif a box of cake in his hands; candles lighted and a shoe box in kak anne's...kak anne jerit2 "cepat2 tiup lilin tuuu!! and here's a present for u...teka ape dlm niii??"---n dgn jujurnye bday girl jawap "kasutlaaa....kan kotak kasut tuuu" (wpun dlm hati ni mcm pelik apsal la x balut kotak ni?? bg cmtu je...kot ye pun nak direct, agak2la kan...) n dgn senyuman yg sgt manis kak anne pun jwp 'haaa bagus2....pandai teka...bukakla cpattt!!"

bday gurl pun bukak la....jeng jeng jeng...."miawwwww"---AAAAAAA...kucingggggg!!!!!!!!omigoshhh...there's a cute lil orange-coloured kitten inside!!!!!!!!!

hehe...ni la "BeToT"!!!!!!

the cake and d kitten...awwww cute!!!!!

seriously tkejut tau kak anne...but thanks...thank you so so much for the present...it really did cheer me up....dgn all d work pilez...tensed n omost died brain cells (haha).....u truly made my day la my dear sis n bro!!!

mucho mucho gracias for d bestest bday bash..EVER!!
(kudos to kak aNNe for taking this great pic...hehe)

..reality check..

2007-03-17T10:51:00.000+08:00

i juz read this story in friendster's bulletin board couple of minutes ago..it wuz posted by "Da Beast"..a guy whom i had known only thru his friendster and blog...we chatted a lil bit,but i guess i just wasnt interesting nuff for him to have long deep or exciting conversations...his d type of guy that i wish i cud have..eventho i know tat he has an exquisite and high taste for gals..plus he had gone thru a devastating experience wif his ex..and d fact that his life is totally diff compared to mine...nevertheless..i just sumhow wish i had d chance to know and be ur special someone, Azimi..(sigh)...(haha..sounds like a very desperado girl kan..ekeke..watever...it just seems right to write this rite now..)

neways, enjoy the story ya..very very reality-check punye story..

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jarwas full. They agreed that it was.

So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes".

The professor then produced two cans of beer from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.The golf balls are the important things, your family, your children, your health, your friends, your favorite passions, things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

"The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, your car. The sand is everything else, the small stuff. "If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "There is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house, and mow the lawn.

Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities.The rest is just sand.

"One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the beer represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of beers."

a T a M .. in loving memory..

2007-03-06T10:04:00.000+08:00

friends...my cuddly, wobbly, fluffy atam dah xde...atam died this morning...found him at the roadside..sib baik x tburai...everythings still intact..alhamdulillah..tapi sedih sgt2...

sape yg nak teman me if i'm alone malam2...sape nak makan catfood yg i baru je beli...sape nak goyang2 grill depan tu every morning...sape yg nak gigit line telefon n end up me yg kne marah...sape yg nak tangkap tikus kat bilik belakang....sape yg nak minum air from d sink everytime he succeeded in entering d dapur...gosh....tam...rindunye nak sebut "who's a good boy??" over n over again...

most of all...i'm gonna miss hearing that bell sound everytime i come back from work..d sound of atam's bell running like mad towards me at d front porch...

..Tuhan, kuatkanlah hambaMu ini...

atam...i miss u...i really2 am goin 2 miss u buddy.... =(

d longest entry..fuhhh

2007-02-28T21:24:00.001+08:00

ntah..nak letak title ape ek? coz this entry's a bit special...a mix, bits n pieces of evrything that has happened to me lately...

firstly, i made a huge mistake on the costing of one of my company's regular customer--end up me realizing i wuz short of RM 1,300...itu pun realize mase tat customer mintak refund..one of his family members x jadi gi..so he wanted d refund for d one not going tu lah...(if only customer tu x mintak refund..sure sume slamat kan??) huaaaa....cedih woo....i seriously x perasan yg my calculation wuz wrong..yeah..mmg xde sape among my bosses pun yg check my calcs..coz they've trusted me oredi...n me oso tot i wuz alert nuff..but little did i know..hm...dah nak jadik kan...nk wat camne..me only human...tapi tu lah..d outcome of it...kene TOLAK gaji meh...hehe...installment 3 months..tu pun sbenanye bos dah bagi diskaun..if not, nak dkt RM 2 K gak ar yg short...(urghh..a mistake not 2 b repeated again!!!)

next story...i went to dayah kecik's wedding...ngan shidah, aji...met bai, adek (n her tunang), mona, rina, way, wan, achik, irwan & couple--sakilawati (haha..DAMN surprising eh??) hurm lawanye dayahhhh!!!!! tapi tu la...dah betambah2 cengkung dia...dulu mmg dah kurus...la ni tambah kurus lagiii....hehe..soo, btambah la sorang lagi membe yang dah jadik bini org...(p/s: hubby dia emsem wooo!! hehehe) enjoy d picz!

Hidayah & Dharmainor

Alaa...gamba candid x brape jadik..but ok gak la..

Pengantin ngah mamam...sweeeett!!

Rombongan kengkawan Hidayah ngan the newlyweds..hmmm...notice d gurl in pink at d centre sitting down?? (hehehehehe..)

Mari begamba beramai2--uitm accounting mates, pay special attention to the first picture...merpati dua sejoli yg kitorang baru je tau on tat day..ILA (d one in pink behind me) and IRWAN (d one beside her in dark blue shirt) is OFFICIALLY DATING!! hehe berita diorg couple lagi meriah dpd wedding day dayahh...ekeke!!

third story...a continuation of wedding dayah actually..mase gi banting tu, kitorg sume pakat nak singgah morib...so here are few snapshots of my 'actually-first-approved-going-out-ngan-membe2 ke pantai plak tu'....hehe crap title..nengok jela gambo2nye ye...

me and ILA at morib beach...hehe..mcm kembar pun ade ek? except me the kembar wif 'kurang tinggi n kurang kurus' package...ekeke!

hehehe....amcam gadis2 iklan kerepek....kelasss gitu..ekeke...shidah tu dia promote pisang dlm plastik..dah terkeluor dr kategori la plak...hik

ni kat umah beduh..singgah jap before btolak balik to Shah Alam...wah2...beduh has changed a lot...yela, sjak btunang ni, makin betambah2 la ketokohan membe aku sorang ni...dah ade rupe mcm bapak org pun ade!! hehehe...anyway, all d best 2 u beduh..mmg ko ade tokoh nak gantikan bapak ko jadik ketua kampung kanchong darat la weh...terel2...

2007-01-11T17:30:00.000+08:00

~~plain ol me~~ hurm..today's been so great...keje x byk sgt...so ape lagi..update blog ar... am thinking of wat m i gonna do nest..after quitting this travel agency i mean...mom wants me to pursue ACCA (for those yg x tau, this is the professional course for account students)..tapi d prob is tat i've never done any account works for the past 2 years..and d last time i touched an account-related document was 1 n a half yr ago...so ketakutan utk pursue a professional course with very, very limited knowledge and familiarity of accounting environmet tu kat tahap cipan gak ar...

another side of me really, really wanna be an English Teacher...but then dah tsalah amik course la plak kan...so in order for me to ACTUALLY BECOME an English teacher is to take up Degree or at least Diploma in TESL...which will require me to fork up an additional 3-4 yrs of my age just to get a cert...then at d age of 27, barula leh nak apply keje as an English teacher..hurm...x lambat sgt ke ek???

hmm....among of my fwenz ada yg kata ok ape amik tesl...and d thought of actually start to work at d age of 27 SHOULD NOT scare me...coz ramai je org yg lg tua dr aku tgh blaja or pursuing further....so it is NOT gonna b a problem...plus the demand for English Teacher is like HUGE thesedays...u gotta teach primary school kids english in maths n science..then u can work in English-based tution centres ke kan....so again its NOT gonna b a problem...(according to them la kan...)

so i guess...wateva it is...its my EFFORT..to go and do research...of how fast i can get my TESL Dip or Deg...or on the ways n means of actually becoming an English teacher...surely where there's a will..there IS a way...rite?? (^_^)

. . . F a R a ' s W e D D i N g . . .

2007-01-10T18:00:00.000+08:00

one of my bestest fwen'z wedding...she's d 1st one to tie d knot in our bacth...u go gurl...moga2 bahgia smpai ke cucit(cucu+cicit)...amin.... gamba yg 1st tu tsalah angle ek? patutnye close up gambo membe sdiri...ni idak...gambo laki dia plak yg ter inteframe...hehehe.....nanti dah dpt nice2 pic frm her, i'll post it..later la ek..

a T a M @ L e o P a R D (hehehe...)

2007-01-10T17:50:00.000+08:00

skali tengok mcm one huge Leopard lying down, kan??? GRRRRRR....hehehe...ini lah buah hati pengarang jantungku...dia lah yg teman di kala ku keseorangan di rumah...dia lah jua yg suka pancut kat dpn porch...haiyaaaaa.....manyak susah tau mau cuci every single morning....

tapi apape pun...LOVE U TOO MUCH LA TAAAMMMMMM...MMUAAAHHHXX!!!

. . . { a T a M L a G i } . . .

2007-01-10T17:34:00.000+08:00

atam in action..me found a polystyrene (betul ke eja nih?) box in front of my hse..(ade jiran2 buang stuffs yg they no longer need kan)..so i had this grreat idea of stuffing my cat into this so-called 'SNOW BOX'..hehehe...wif my phone camera, look how it turned out..

so here are some pics of my cuddly, wobbly and cuteeeee aTaMMMMM!! wink!wink!! (^_^)

"huh..kotak ape nih?? mcm menarik je..."

"huargh...makan 'snow'!!!" --tengok..abis dicakarnye kotak tu..kindof looks like my aTaM playing in snow kan?

"weeee..me in snowland!!" --hehe..

"look!!look!! a squirrel just passed by!!" -- aTaM in an 'ambush' position...ready to strrikee!!

ahernye...'kenyang' dah perut makan sume 'snow' yg ade kat dlm kotak ni!!!" --> dah penat sgt main dalam 'SNOW BOX' la tu !!

. . . { a T a M } . . .

2007-01-10T17:11:00.000+08:00

a T a M ! ! !

2006-12-16T11:04:00.000+08:00

innocent lil eisya... notti lil ainn... and forever playful lil iema!!!

2006-12-16T11:00:00.000+08:00

Pic 1: layu je mata atam tu..standard la, baru pas mamam..
Pic 2: hmm....so tats where my brother's specs went...har har har..
Pic 3: yeah...super cat in the making...ready to take off from the speaker to the floor....woohoo!!

2006-12-16T10:58:00.000+08:00

Handsome Atam resting on the porch and Loving Mickey in Memories....love you both too much...hehe...missed mickey so much though....sigh...~rest in peace yah~

2006-12-16T10:48:00.000+08:00

hehehe..one more talented model in d family...my niece...~NuR ZaIMaH~ u go gurl!! ni candid je sbenanye..right before her bedtime...didnt thot it'll turn out this gorgeous!!hehehe..terel kan camera woman..nyeh nyeh

2006-12-16T10:46:00.000+08:00

yeah..close up!! a veryy talented model gak rupenye si kenit nih...hehehe

2006-12-16T10:43:00.000+08:00

me..haziq n ain!!!! budak sorang neh sangat over-hyper-aktif!!!!!!! miss u la dear..mmuahx!!

summary..ekeke..

2006-12-02T10:03:00.000+08:00

xtau nak start from where actually...lame btul x update kan...so ni la bits n pieces of stories happened recently....

hm...for a start..i went to bali frm 21st to 24th Nov arituh...n God knows how d preparation for the trip before going tu...gosh, rase mcm xmo handle so many companies nemore kot...so many kerenah n perangai manusia yg i had 2 put up wif...then bile balik sini plak ingatkan dah bole rilek ar sket kot..little that i know yang a lot more 'after-trip' docs tat i had to work on n submit...hehe...but it was all experience eh...mahal tu....hihi

okie..tats done...hmm kak wati's no longer workin wif magna bridge....sedey gile...my big sis da xde...tp xpe..ur spirit will alwiz be wif me sis....miss u so much....mula2 k.cikin...then izwan...then nurul..then along...then practical studs....now i'm all alone..ngan org2 baru...not as cheerful n as caring as all d previous workmates i had...feels so different...sigh.....

and someone's special's coming over this month...insya allah, by the 19th he's here...hehe...sape ek....

and kalau xde aral insya allah, nxt yr i'm going to his hometown plak...tapi bukan nak wat pe2 pun...i'm joining a group from here to hike Mount Kinabalu..pergh...mcm best je bunyik...but wat'll make it even better is tat he'll also be joining me....hope it'll be a memoir on top of mount kinabalu tat can never be forgotten..hehehehe....(tu pun kalu trip tu jadik la kan..)

2006-10-20T13:30:00.000+08:00

The Donchan Palace Hotel...d one i stayed in Vientiane, Laos

2006-10-20T12:41:00.000+08:00

The whole troop..wohoohoo~

2006-10-20T12:33:00.000+08:00

The askars..hehe..in total 60 of em..this is only quarter of the troop..woohoo..attention to my

'Mr. Scandal'....d one in pinkish...7 from right...hehehe...

pic uploads

2006-10-20T11:37:00.000+08:00

pergh...lawa gile ah ayor terjun kat Laos ni ha....seriously breathtaking beb!!!

. . . P o N T e N g . . .

2006-10-16T10:34:00.000+08:00

hehehehe.....jgn marah tau....

smlm i had to babysit my two nieces tau..n their mom had to go out on a 'sedekah-all-baju-n-duit' event done by her society...

lps tu kan....the eldest tu is 8 yr old dah..while her younger sis is 5 yr ol..yg kecik tu mmg konfem la x pose...then while i was preparing some nasik grg for yg kecik tu...tibe2 kakak dtg (we all call d eldest tu kakak)...n she said "mak su....sedapla bau nasik goreng ni....erm....mak su boleh tlg anta msg kat mama tak?? btau kakak nak bukak pose..lps makan nanti kakak sambung pose balik" -- ekeke....ada ka...hihi....mule2 mak su dia wat dono je...tapi bila she beriye2 ckp "ala xpela maksu..mama x marah...maksu anta je msg kat mama...betul...nanti mama msti kasi"

...then mak su dia pun x smpai ati la....so i sent a msg to my sis...askin her isit ok for kakak to sort of 'open' her fast..n u know wat..tat noti niece of mine ACTUALLY CHECKED d msg tat i was about to sent to her mom!!!! pergh ....kids these days....(ahaha...little did u know wat am i gonna say next..)

hmm....pastu kan....mak su dia dah siap2 goreng nasik...ngah suapkan yg bongsu tu...titbe si kakak tanye..."mak su xmau makan ke? mama kata org pompuan xpe..boleh bukak pose sparuh hari...mama dulu pnah wat..( bndera jepun la tuuu)...tapi org pompuan je boleh, org lelaki xleh...haa..klu mak su nak buka pose, mehla makan ngan kitorang.." HA HA...VERRRY d clever punye budakkkkkk...

sudahnye...u guys leh teka ak pe jadik lepas tu???????????

maka....... t e r b a t a l l a h p u a s a h a m b a M u i n i Y a A l l a h........

MueHeHeHeeeeeee!!! (psstt...kakak..jgn btau org lain tauu!!!!!) ekekeke.....masya Allah..ape punye maksu daaaa.....punyela nipisnye iman...ekeke...x tahan godaan walau sekecil zarah...dahla tu...BUDAK KECIK plak tu yg tukang godaaaaaaa!!!!

hehehe...insaflah wahai manusia....ekeke...(okeylaaaaa...pas nih x wat dahhhhhhhh!!!!!!) + )

. . . C i T y L i N k ' s S u R P r i S e . . .

2006-10-10T09:56:00.000+08:00

got a 'not-so-neatly-wrapped-but-full-of-surprise' parcel from Citylink yesteday morning.....

hehehe...jeng jeng jeng....ape agaknye isik dalam parcel tuh ek...???

" C a N T i K n Y e G e L a N g ! ! ! "

huaaaa....gue udah cair banget dehhh......

^_^

~suka sgt!!!!!~

sambungan..

2006-10-06T12:58:00.000+08:00

sambungan kepade kisah mamam bersame my bro n his awek....masa after bukak pose kat a & w...while waiting for d time to go into d cinema...me n akak jln2 kat keliling tu..masuk watson jap...while my bro pi kat kreta jap...nak amik something....(little tat i know rupe2nye dia pi carik gak restoren chicken heartz tu!-punyela x pueh ati..)

so when he came back frm d 'car'..dgn bangganya dia kata "abg dah jumpe chicken heartz!!!!" then me n akak wuz like "huh? kate dah xde??" -- turns out rupe2 nye restoren tu dah pindah ke ground floor...along wif sum other restaurants..yela..tmbh pulak sunway p da xde food court (which my bro n his awek BARU je tahu!)

hehe..tu je ar...

tlupe nak sambung hari tu sbenanye...ekeke.... till then..~daa daa!!~ ^_^

. . . m y H e a R t . . .

2006-10-02T14:44:00.000+08:00

huhu..sedih banget deh...mlm tadi gi nengok wyg ngn my bro n his awek...(this time i approve his awek 200%!! haha..she's like a sis n a great fwen all at d same time! he better treat her rite...cuz this time i'll backup her n not him!!hehehe..)

so..neways..d story was ok la kot...a bit melodramatic..n a bit jiwang...but all in all OK la...(though i DID cry in the end...uhukk..dont tease me okay..i had all d rite 2 cry tau...tambah plak bile tgk rachael's cute face...n muka dia bile nangis..hadu...x tahan la...sedih banget lho!!

so..who's to blame? Farel for not noticing how his bestest fwen is fallin head over heels for him? (haha..lelaki mmg bengong skit when it comes to notice d small2 things..to them kawan is kawan..not gf material kot...) or shud we blame Rachael for not sayin it out loud at Farel? (then again kalau dia bgtau pun..bukannye kite tau whether Farel is gonna accept or not..tah2 mati kene gelak dek Farel jek..) or cud Luna be blamed for being sick? (haha..jgnla kejam sgt smpai nak mghukum org yg x salah..she's really ill la weh..)

tapi cerita tu agak x logic la towards the end...ada ka Rachael trus mati then tau2 Luna dah dpt hati dia...n she lived happily ever after wif Farel...urgh...adilkah??mmgla its like her heart yg ade dlm Luna..n its like it IS RACHAEL yg dengan Farel...Hati R, but Badan L...hehehe...kelaka2...

dah2...i'm talking rubbish now...haha...overall..i had tons of fun last nite (apart from ponteng terawih la kan...hik!!ok2..x ponteng dah laaa...)...bayangkan...we went in sunway, then surveyed for a place to eat..we planned to eat at chicken heartz..tapi bile sampai kat d respected floor..titbe tgk kedai tu dah xde...(please note tat d last time we ever went to sunway was like 2 yrs back kot..haha!) so then pi pusing2 carik tmpt best nak berbuka...pusing punya pusing (sambil dlm hati sbenanye frust xdpt nak mamam chicken heartz..) then my bro ckp "jomlah turun..kita cari chicken heartz kat tmpt lain" --haha..mind u jam dah kul 6.40 time tu..kelaka2!

then masa dh sampai kat parking lot..my bro's awek said..ala tapikan...mcm nak tgk wyg lps makan...nak sgt nengok cite Heart..dahla keciwa x dpt makan Chicken Heartz...xnakla miss nengok cite Heart plak....n kat sini je tmpt yg paling dekat..wayang pun ok..sbb tadi nmpk cam x crowded sgt...n my bro dgn x sampai hatinye pun....haha..guess wat we did after tat? NAIK BALIKKKK!!!! we bought tickets...then open fast kat A & W..(where me n my bro mamam nasik ayam yg tersangatlah x worth RM7..haha..) luckily the onion rings and waffles were GREAT...ekekeke..what a nite!!!

. . a L H a M D u L i L L a H . .

2006-10-02T14:22:00.000+08:00

hurm...bulan dpn i'm promoted...jadi Business Development Controller...huehuehue...bunyik mcm best yek..tapi kejenye 'lagilaaa' best...makin melambak2 la papers on my desk...dahla staf tinggal 2 org je kat my office...no more practical students..no more gossiping wif my cous (dier gi smbung blaja wat acca da..)..no more nurul (she brenti in order to help her father wif his company...pergh....a director at a very young age tuh...dia lah yang hv d authority to sign the cheques tau!! Lucky her....) then all the 4 practical students dah cau..all bz finishin their thesis (bz ke?? enjoy kot..ari2 leh bangun lmbt..huhu..jeless!!)

n then there's only me n kak watie...sedih seh....me wif all d tour works..and kak watie wif ticketing jobs...huarghhhhh!!!!!!!

walaupun gaji naik tapi hati tetap sedih...

. . . R i n D u . . .

2006-09-28T13:48:00.000+08:00

. . . . i M i s s . . . .

havin someone to miss call like 100 times a day n then sulk coz he said i'm crazy....

havin someone to giggle about to my girlfwenz....

havin someone to think about every second of the day....

havin someone to 'report' every single thing i did during the day.....

lookin forward to weekends to spend time wif....

But mostly...rindu sangat nak ada someone to rindu..

. . w H y . .

2006-09-27T12:18:00.000+08:00

why?? why has it been so hard to forget the past?? to forget every single thing that had happened?? to forget all the worse things he did to me..let alone all the sweet moments we shared together...d moments tat i'll cherish forever...urghhh...m hatiing myself for writing n admitting to this..but i just cant handle it...

i hate him..yet i miss him....so much........urghhhh!!!!!! y am i feeling like thissss???!!!!! i cant stand the misery..d loneliness....n when i'm alone somehow all the memories suddenly appear in front of me..makin me even more depressed of the thots "what if i didnt say tat..or wat if i didnt say tat i didnt want to be his guarantor?...and wat wud it be if i'm still wif him until now....sigh...m so sad rite now...n d fact dat i'm seeing all my fwenz getting engaged...getting into new relationships...some of em r even furthering into d 'more serious' stage of their lovelife....n sume pun nak dtg cite kat aku.....huargh....hukuman apekah ini??? karma kahhh????? sedih bangat sih.....

(cat..........jgnla mcm ni......u're feeling THIS depressed juz cuz u dont have anyone YET....trust in GOD, He'll give u someone SUITABLE when the RIGHT time comes, dear....plzzz hang in there!!!!!!!)

. . . . . . . H e L p M e . . . . . . . .

mcm mane ek...

2006-09-07T12:19:00.000+08:00

. . . L O N E L Y . . .

The LetteR

2006-09-07T10:34:00.000+08:00

To : My Hubby-To-Be

Dear Bee..
When will i be meeting you?
I miss you so much..
And i am so tired of waiting..
Bila lah Tuhan mo jumpakan kita? (haha..i am so used to Sabahan accent now bee..cant help it..there's juz too much of Sabahan influence in my office!)

Sayang dah penat..penat sgt..
Syg baru je kenal 3 guys, tapi terasa mcm dh kenal beribu-ribu jenis manusia...
mula2 dgn Aban...had to dating kat gerai...and siap kena kemas gerai (and all of my fwenz said "katy..ko KEMAS GERAI??"

Then there's Kamarul..a 34-yr ol lad..so successful yet so MELAYU (he hardly even s[eaks English..but he claims he's the director of 4 companies..apekah??!) oh, and one more thing..he's also so so desperately single..duhh.. and not to mention his BOSSI-NESS (imagine..ada ka pi Starbuck - which is a first time for me - end up i had to be the one to go n order n then i xtau nak order..n plus the gurl at d counter didnt even bother to ask wheter i wanted the small, medium or large..she just straight away gave me the LARGEST; hence the money given by that guy is not nuff n i had to go back to his table and get some more money..and everybody yg tgh queue up was like glaring at me.....urghh!!!!) nevertheless..ya la..its a no doubt that all money changes n balance goes straight in my handbag..but still there's just NO chemistry AT ALL!!

And lastly, there's this MANIPULATIVE SELF-CENTRED HOMOSAPIEN!!!!!!!
he's totally n definitely the WORSSTTTTTTT of allll....
Lost damn lot to him...in what terms? urgh..bia lah..xmo cerita bahh...

So Bee..when can i finally get to meet you??
In this world or after?
Sedihla Bee..walaupun terlalu payah untuk melupakan kenangan with Wan..
There's just too much chemistry between us..
But there's also too much pain that i had to go thru....

I know that somehow there's a reason for everything...
Maybe God wanted me to be MORE ALERT with guys..
Dont and NEVER trust them EASILY..
Tapi the worst of all...
I just cant brush away this one feeling inside of me...
The feeling of LONELINESS..

Though i'm happy that I no longer need to peningkan my head to think bout Wan's manipulative and SICK mind..but deep down inside i'm still a normal girl..lonely as ever..

SIGH...

Yours Truly,

Your Darling-To-Be

the end..

2006-09-02T20:41:00.000+08:00

too many things had happened in my life..esp relating to my love life..which is now gone...

yup..he broke it up last nite...and not a single moment was i regretfull or whatso eva..

i dont know y i wanted him to be the one who decides..mayb mainly coz i dont wanna be d one 2 b blamed..coz i know that if I were the one who made the decision, after the broke up..sumhow along the way, i WILL miss him n i WILL call or at least msg him...

so when he said the 'putus' word..then if he ever comes back, i can straight away say it to his face tat he was the one who decided..(childish, huh? biarlah....)

tapi kan..come to think of it..he DID broke it up by putting ALL the BLAME on ME..( ada ka broke up cuz i xnak jadi d guarantor to his car's loan..and also put the blame on me since i xnak tlg dia, so if he doesnt get the job in Kementerian Sukan (which requires him to have a car)..then its my fault..hmm..apekah la...u're d one yg x dpt d job nak blame org lain pulak..kecoh betul laa...)

but before last nite..so many things had happen between us..so many frustration, sadness...tapi.... the sweet memories can never be replaced either...

as much as i hate all the things tat he had done...i just cant deny the chemistry tat was there...we loved cats..and ribenas (yeah..yeah.. i know it sounded stupid to just fall in love wif someone that has JUST these 2 things in common!!)

and what saddens me the most is when i think "why is he doing all these nonsense? cuz if you love someone, you wont be doing all those crap things to the person u love and cared most...

is it true that i'm the only one that he has? how sure am i that he's not treating his ex-gf like how he has treated me??(they are EX according to him la kan..kalau he's still in a 'hanging' rship wif em i xtaula kan..)

there's just too many unsure things about him..yeah, sure he took care of me..but then he was never REALLY there when i needed him the most...sure he was there when i had the biggest fight with my mom..and he was also there when i was ready to move out of the house (of course..he only SAID that he'll find a house for me...but those just stayed as WORDS, never were put into action... ) y cant he be sincere and kind like how he had helped me throughout the worst experience i had with the robbers?? why cant he sacrifice like how he sacrificed when i was in Bali? siap bagi extra money and called me EVERY SINGLE day while i was in Bali..siap top upkan lagi...WHYYYY????

and if its wasnt for my dearest fwen...i wouldnt have notice the manipulative and deceptive mind of him...all the lies and threats...gosh..only God knows how hard it had been for me...thanks so much yang (u know who you are..)...thank you so much for all the time you sacrificed in listening to my mourns..my haywire moods (esp when i was in Laos eh? managing 60 soldiers is nothing..i even got left behind at the waterfalls eh??haha! still, they were great and werent too much too handle..its the memories, smell of after-shaves and faces tat resembles him tat i couldnt handle..)

its been so, so hard...but at the least i still have ITAM (my cuddly, wobbly and cheeky cat!!)..my FAMILY (who will love me no matter what; even after the BIGGEST fight - yelling, crying n all!!)..and lastly my everlasting CIRCLE OF FWENZ (who has always been on the lookout for me..)

Thanks so much for your guidance, guys..wouldnt have made it without everybody's help!!!

and lastly, THANK YOU GOD for showing me the greatest lesson in life through this testing..it may be so painful that i wont be able to forget it at all...at least not in nearest time...but i've become a new person...someone who will always be on alert...dont trust ppl THAT EASILY..and i now realize who truly loves me and who r the ones who'll just be around when THEY NEED YOU, but were never there when u needed them the most...

. . . T H A N K Y O U . . .

2006-07-11T18:51:00.000+08:00

Me n the Mr Huzni's asisstant..Miss Sri..hehehe...very nice lady..waduh..suaramu semerdu buluh perindu mbak!! ; >

2006-07-11T18:47:00.000+08:00

me at the hotel lobby...waduh2...cantik banget la hotelnye....

2006-07-11T18:18:00.000+08:00

Me with the Tour Guide on Duty..Pak Natsir..hehehe...nice guy..n extreeeeemely nice on the last day..(mane xnye..i got commission from him--he said it wuz my portion of the commission for bringing the group to shop at SELECTED outlets yaa..hehehehehe)

2006-07-11T18:13:00.000+08:00

wif d operations manager of Holiday Villa Diwangkara, Bali..hurm...hensem eh??orang Malaysia gak..tp dah terfall in love ngn Bali..so he said he's gonna stay in Bali for good...by d way..he's still single... ;p but since he's gonna stay there for good..so no hopes la..sigh... ; )

2006-07-11T17:50:00.000+08:00

SunSeT at MaTaHaRI MaLL, BaLi..aLa2 KLCC kat Msia arr...

SimPLy GorGeOuS!!!!!!!!

2006-07-11T17:45:00.000+08:00

hehehehe...sungguh kelaka waktu ituuuhhh!!!!! ;p

2006-07-11T17:35:00.000+08:00

hehehe...ayu tak 'tuan puteri' kat 'mahligai' bali nih...muehehehe...lawa gile tmpt ni laa....nak gi agi!!!

2006-07-11T17:30:00.000+08:00

ni la my konvo punyer bungee....hehehe

nak tulih ke xnak..

2006-07-06T15:26:00.000+08:00

hmm...i know everybody is going against me...but sumhow d 'against' thingy is makin me stronger n makes me wanna try my hardest to prove to all that i can do it despite what they say..

yes, the sun won't always SHINE...but clouds r also NOT ALWAYS going to be dark..

i am juz so sick n tired of trying 2 please EVERY SINGLE BODY and i have come to the stage where i dont even have time for MYSELF....(i think this sentence shud come before the sun n cloud thing, rite?tapi sbb blog nih xleh nk cut n paste so..apapejelaaaaaa)

(again..only me who truly understands tat quote..hehehe)

~end~

CaVe~uNLeaSHeD...(aHaKs!!)

2006-06-30T11:38:00.000+08:00

hurm...sumtimes it juz takes A WHOLE D*** LOT of one's patience to cope with something..

hehe..paham ke those astericks (betul ke eja mende alah ni?) ..

neways..no more cavey issues...dah ok dah....i just hav 2 b a little more patient nxt time..n have a helluva time wif my fwenz ke..or go shopping alone ke..just so tat i can get my mind OFF him..n let him cool down..n settle all his probs..then he'll come back and share..n all..n etc ..n then nti ok la balik tu...

regards to azlina taib (i know i shud've listened to you..but i wuz just so stubborn..nak gak cari pasal n keep on mintak him to share n not understanding to juz let it be..give him d space tat he needs..i mean kita akan share wif a person whne we feel like to, kan? if we just dont feel like it then we wud not b sharing-lah, rite??...so ok..i got my lesson...wont do it again..)

one thing i know now..is tat i am a V V patient punya org..hehe..org lain salah pun i'm d one yg akan mtk maaf n hope that evrythg'll settle n go back to normal just as it is a.s.a.p

ntahla..i just cant stand anymore fights lah..PENAT...n oso sgt penat kot nak find sumone else..n go thru d process of bercinta-gaduh-baik..all over again...i mean if kita asyik nak mcari something much better..eventually we will NOT GET IT...coz nobody's perfect..(courtesy of article "Love vs Marriage' posted by Ms. Fadilah Hani - miss u la gurl..lame gile x jumpe eh?)....so sayangilah what u have..n find ways to make it better..make it a rship ke..a person ke..sume boleh di didik n di ubah....cuma mungkin tahap kesabaran during those 'teaching' and learning process is gonna b tuff la kan....n one more thing....a little bit of complaints and regrets along the way IS OK..just jgn lupe yang GOD is watching your every step...so BEWARE n BERSYUKUR.....

mungkin sekarang kita susah..n dalam kita susah2 tu pun..kita kena tolong org lain...but at least we try our best to help tat person...maybe in future tat person will do d same thing to us..n who knows tat person nanti will be senang ke in future kan...(yes, of course..we DO NOT KNOW anything for sure...and sacrificing a lot for tat person mite not even benefit us at all..coz we mite not get anytg at all in future ke...) tapi i prefer to be on the "I-did-everything-in-my-power" side..at least if anything happens in future, i will not be blamed...as i had done my best...

~end~

lovey cavey??(muehehe...i'm d only one who understands..)

2006-06-26T15:32:00.000+08:00

hurm...what to write eh...STILL on the cave issue...

i guess there's no other way then to just simply understand...and eventually ACCEPT...

its not a crime to be an ego maniac and also a 'cave'-maniac (is there even such a term??HA HA)...as its not a crime when a women goes thru pms...

so i juz gotta be like DAMN patient wif him for now....for a future that no one knows..it mite b great..bad or just nice..

bersabar jelah ek...

just one small enquiry - if kita tolong org tu time dia btul2 tdesak n tgh desperate gila...tat person will like ingat kita sampai mati ke..??haha..funny question eh...n again..a question only i understand...ehekss...

KuaSa TuHaN..SaMBuNGaN~~

2006-06-12T15:48:00.000+08:00

still on the 'cave' issue...

now maybe 'pelamin anganku musnah' kot...

adoyy..y does life has to be so difficult..

org lain yg salah org lain yg mintak maaf..

not d prince charming enimore eh?

aiyoh...aku ka yg salah....aku yg suffer lagi ada la.....

how can they be so damn cold....

Kuasa Tuhan...

2006-06-05T21:45:00.000+08:00

just when i thought God was Superb..right there and then i was smacked in the face..(proves tat nobody IS pefect)..mmg dia sgt prihatin, sgt caring, sgt nak jumpa hari2..tapi bila angin dia dtg..adu....sakitnye...hehehhh..merapu eks..

so d saying 'Tuhan jadikan kamu berpasang-pasangan dan hendaklah kamu itu saling melengkapi antara satu sama lain'--meaning org yg sabar kena la bersabar dgn org yg baran yerk??hehehehe...am i makin any sense to anyone??hik..

ntahla...i know i shud be angry and i shud demand more respect..but then it didnt happen like tat..i jus cried a lil bit and screamed on top of my lungs for a while..but then the sadness and anger juz sumhow dissapeared..and i came my senses n rationalized tat he may need sum space of his own.. (well...not really my OWN senses la...i read it once in the Man frm Mars Women frm Venus book..maybe they do need time to themselves..its not tat they dont care..n they can become V V COLD..but its juz coz they cant think of other things at tat time..they're juz too preoccupied wif d porbs they're havin at tat point of time..)

so i guess it is true tat man and woman cope with problems DIFFERENTLY..a woman will be able to share with another woman whom she BARELY knows or JUST MET on the roadside or happens 2b sitting next to her at the bus stand..

whereas a man will sort of masuk dlm their 'gua' and find ways to solve their probs..n they wont tell anyone bout their prob until its settled...hahahahaa to be continued...

P a P a B e a R . . . .

2006-05-01T17:15:00.000+08:00

m missin my papa bear so much...thanx for coming into my world, dear...u're evrythg i've ever wanted...n thanx for acceptin me just as i am... ;)

nice song...

2006-04-13T00:07:00.000+08:00

dihempas ombak...terdampar buih...menanti waktu...begitu rindu...dipisah takdir...menanti saat bersulam cinta...lihat..lihat....ke dlm mataku...sinarnya menyala...lihat..lihat..ke dlm mataku..cintamu bertakhta....sebelum ku kenal..dirimu siapa..aku tak kenali..apa itu cinta...setelah kukenal dirimu sebenar..kau cinta sejati..kusandarkan jiwa...

digilis angin..tercarik awan..menanti deti...sblm hujan..begitu sendu..diguris resah...meniti hari..bersulam tangis...lihat..lihat..ke dlm mataku..sinarnya menyala..lihat..lihat..ke dlm mataku...cintamu bertakhta di hati....

x kan berganjak pendirianku ini selagi kita x kembali bersatu selamanya...xkan berubah perasaan ini terhadapmu..biar diduga..biar dicabar,..biar dihalang..sblm kukenal dirimu siapa...aku xkenali apa itu cinta..setelah kukenal..dirimu sebenar..kau cinta sejati...ku sandarkan jiwa....

------banyak kenangan lagu ni...n byk relate 2 my current love life yg dh gone wif d wind...ntahlah...aku ke yg slh??..mmg salunye i will blame myself for a wrecked rship..but i guess it wuz 4 d best kot...we're jst frm 2 totally diffrt worlds...he cant stand my mengade2-ness and i cant stand his bz-ness...('purrfect' combination eh?)..i still do miss him....hmm...it wz jst not meant 2 b...hv 2 face n accept it-lah...(hard,obviously!)...

salute 2 a fren of mine yg mmg matured gurl...x marah n x rs pe2 pun if her date wuz cancelled last minute...but in her case..its d family issue..his family's no.1...whereas in my case..his work's no.1...so i guess itu 2 kes yg sgt berbeza,kan??newayz..tabikla u dear!!

sure hope 1 day i can dedicate lagu ni 2 sum1 really2 special..sum1 dat deserves it..bilerla agaknye nk jumpak my true cinta hati...my prince charming..my boo...ahahahhhh...geli plaks ek....------------------

duh...

2006-04-10T23:39:00.000+08:00

6 april 2006 - - S i N g L e a G a i N - - (duh...)

recap...

2006-03-08T16:50:00.000+08:00

hurm..lame dh x update eh???waaa...ingtkan keje besh coz dpt gaji n all...tp d burden n workload is much2 harder then i expected..even worse than classwork!! (oyyy..mmgla lg susa..if not..its not called WORKLOAD...silly!!!) hehehe...neways...bulan nih naik pangkat...frm accounts n admin asisstant to contract n pricing executive..huehue...bunyik cam grand je eh?? but d raise comes wif tons n tons of additional work!!!!!!! i had to update all d contract rates, hotel rates, n also revise all d quotations given by agents around d WORLD!!!!!!

HUARGH...sgt menduga kesabaran n ketahanan mental beb...mane x nye...blom abish 1 work...dtg lg melambak2 keje...n all needs either prompt or quick reply...aduhhhhhhh...mana bisa dong!!!!

itu blum masuk follow ups from d customers dat d company got during d promotion week at Giant 13 arituh...mcm2 tul diorg ndak..4 packages yg dh ready-made bolela trus email to 'em...tp yg xde tu..hav 2 request frm agents n then do costing all over again..n then kne mail back 2 d customers...arghhhh.....ENDLESS series of tasks la...i tell uuuuuu....

NEvertheless.....i guess...d raise dat i got which is frm 850 to 1100...okla kot...bru je kje 2 bulan dh dpt raise eh??hehe..tho lg tgi if i kje ngn a small audit firm...but at least i got 2 experience a whole loads of things ere...d boss is quite ok..x strict sgt..n understanding..in terms of they'll patiently guide u thru tasks yg u're not familiar wif...tp kdg2 tu..bile ketenseionan melande diri my bosses..kne gak arr tempias2 marah tu...hehehe...adatla kan... hurm...tho so far,i've not been given ANY accounts-related jobs..(haha..apekah ek??) klaka...accounts grad doin marketing, admin n sales job in a travel agency...hihi!!

so...me n kamarul been ok...just dat ade 1 time arituh i nearly decide to call it quits...sbb he hasnt called for like 1 week n not replyin 2 any msgs at all...so i got really pissed off...n i just ignored d FOUR calls he made within d next 3 weeks...(yeah..i know...only FOUR laaa???)...

he told me bout his probs..n his dilemmas...n dat he just cant call or msg me every single day like wut he used 2 do back then..(during d 1st month of our rship)...he himself has made d choice of being d type of bos yg sgt suke 'turun-padang' n monitor his staff's works...so i hv 2 undstd...

wait..did i brief bout our 2nd date??hurm..well..i managed 2 squeeze him out of his bz-ness during d chinese new yr hols..on 31st of jan...we met at klcc..n gosh....SGT RAMAINYE org time tuh!!!!we can barely breath or have a private space 2 sit n talk!!!

well..since he arrived 1 hour late --my mistake, not his...adela kisahnye y i wuz d cause of him coming late 4 our date..ehehe...so smentare tgu time msuk wyg we jalan2 dlu..then..minum2 jap kat starbucks..(my 1st time masuk starbucks!!) n since he had nvr been 2 d cinemas...so i suggested dat we watched Buli Balik together...plus he was so ngade2 xmau tgk citer lain except romantic story...n kbetulan lak on dat day citer lain is either horror or chinese kungfu...(hurm...tp tu la....Buli Balik still xleh lawan BAik Punya Cilok arr...gelak x brenti2!!!--msg 2 afdlin...do lots more films like BPC..not like Buli n Buli Balik...tho it focuses more on morality...but there's not much impact left in d viewer's head after they leave d cinemass<--ahahaa...leh jadik film critics ehh??)

so after tgk wyg..nk g solat ar...n guess wut..he hasnt been to klcc for like 2 yrs n me--3 yrs dh x jejak klcc tau!!hahaha..so leh imagine ak..ala2 cam rusa msuk kg ar gak....heh!!sgt susa nk carik surau tau...we had 2 ask 3 security guards!!!!so then we had lunch at KFC..n SGT2 ramai org gak!!!! so we decided 2 tapau n mamam kat tmn kat lua...haduu..bad choice..sgt ramai 'tourists'..mamat2 n minah2 indon..bangla..u name it laa...mcm2 ada!!!

hehe..neways..we finally managed 2 find a spot n lepak kat situ smpai ptg...then my dad msged me n said i had 2 go back early coz d next day is awal muharam...so kne balik bc doa tutup buku amalan...n after magrib kne bc doa bukak buku baru...so kne rushing balik la plak...huhu..sgt sedey tau ms nk say bye2 kat train...he had 2 go back 2 terminal putra (he drove frm kuantan n parked at gombak..coz he just hates d traffic in kl..) n me had 2 go back 2 s.alam....

i actually cried on d way back in d train..(haha..emotional huh??)

so...mlm td he called n we made a pact...no plannings as for now...if there's ever gonna b any plans..it'll be after 3 yrs frm now...Y???hehehe...d reasons r only for us 2 know n not for others 2 find out... ;)

to my bestest fwen...hope 2 b at ur engagement this may..n gudlak 4 this sunday..hehehe...i'm d one who's excited la plakkk...ekeke...

to all my fwenz takin acca..gudlak 4 ur exams this june...2 all of u guys yg still having interviews...hope u'll pass d interview wif flying colours...n 2 shera...fwenz 4 eva...sorry 4 evrythg......2 k.ann..tq so much 4 all ur support...preciate it v much...n hope u'll clear it wif abg ree....muah2 2 all...nak continue work nih...since boss outstation today..so tu yg leh nk mronggeng update blog nih japs...tp keje2 updating files tuh still not settled....so buhbye for nowwww.... tataaa ~end

not so sure anymore....

2006-02-11T23:50:00.000+08:00

now just nk FOCUS on my WORK..MALAS dh nk FENIN2 kan pale otak....TITIK.

he spoke to my parents!!!!!!!

2006-01-26T14:06:00.000+08:00

ehehehe.....last nite g tgk wyg kat klcc wif my parents..my dad got free tickets 2 c "memoirs of a geisha'.....so me n mama tag along ah...my bro wuz bz wif his appoinments...so haha pdn muke xdpt gi...hihi!!!

so...on d way..ms kat dlm keta...my precious bee called (unexpectedly...sbb ptg tu bru je dia call me!!) so..ms tgh borak2 n dh cite psl me goin 2 d movies wif mom n dad...suddenly he asked 2 speak 2 my mom...(WHATT????) i wuz so tkejut n so x tau nk wtpe..so i just said NO..xboleh...x ready lg kott!!...then he sounded dissapointed n sedih...so he hung up...(huarghhh..dh sgt panik time nih!!) so i sent a msg 2 cidah..n she said "bagi jelaaaaa!!!dh dia yg nk ckp...wutever ur parents nyer reaction tu blkg citerr daaa"--n so...i sent another msg 2 him askin him 2 call me back...dat is if he still wants 2 talk 2 mama....n HE DID!!!

hihi...so dgn gamblenye...i gave my fon 2 mama..n both of em actually talked!!!eheks...i m just so takutt n giggling mcm org x btull time nih....so then after finished talkin 2 my mom he said "hmm..ok...wa...bole ajak borak ar mama ek??"--ihihikk...sukanya dia!!

then titibe i felt like xkan nk bg dia ckp wif my mom je kan??my dad??so i gave d fon 2 papa....n my dad mcm agak reluctant ar at 1st 2 talk 2 him...tp at d end of d conversation my dad said "thanks 4 calling"..ehehekk...n my bee's reply wuz "waaa....speaking papa ngn abg ek??hihiiii"--hehe...another triumphant moment 4 him!!!

so..after dat...we talked a while bout where me n my folks r goin (2 klcc cinema la kan...) ...n he said "beshnyeee...abg x nah g tgk wyg tau..mmg x nah msuk panggung lgsg!!" alaaa....shiannye diaa...2 bz 2 even haf time 2 go watch moviesss..so i replied "hurm...xpe2...nanti monday kite g nengok wyg yek???"..."hehe....ok syggg..." --awwwwwwww....hihihii...

tp suddenly plak my mom bru ckp td yg weekend ni kne blek kg coz my uwan is sakit...n then on tuesday d 31st lak ade kduri gak kat kg...(huargh....leh ke blek s.alam nk g dating on monday???) so...td tghari g gayut jap ngn my dad kat public fon...n we actually DID PLAN 4 me 2 b able 2 go out on monday...papa's plan wuz dat i have 2 really b a darling kat kg...tolong2 n urut wan n all...n then on sunday nite we (either just me n my dad or my bro skali) balik s.alam jap..n then monday nite or tuesday morning go back 2 kg again....hurm..sounds reasonable nuff??just hope dat mama bg balik on sunday mlm....pray hard,huh???????

....

2006-01-23T13:14:00.000+08:00

statistics shows....very small percentage of survival rate...though surgical is a wise alternative..tp after surgical pun mayb complications can happen...n during healing period..there'll b lots of chemos n radiations...eekkhh...sound so horrifying...those lasers n radiations goin thru d body...xleh ke if x wat chemo after operation??use bel air lah..proven 2 increase health n lower d cancer cells....

stats shown most successful operations can lead 2 a 5-year survival rate....but not all patients r suitable 4 operation...though i did find 1 article sayin dat d tech of today's medical is increasing d chances of survival rate...n one more dat says china is currently d best place 2 go 4 an operation...mind u their tech n wat knots...

a person is showing an interest and willingness TO LIVE if dat person is doing everythg in her/his power to cure d disease...e.g like going 4 checkups n discussions w doctors...n even planning 2 go 2 china 2 hv d operation done there..so dat person WANTS 2 LIVE la,rite??

so d ppl around dat patient SHUD NOT b crying even sad for d patient..coz nti diorg lg sedih...give n say positive things, remarks...cheerful greetings..messages...n WAIT 4 em 2 be healthy again...

sama2 kita doakan moga dipanjangkan umur n disembuhkan spenuhnya dr pnyakit......amin!

what's wrong wif me????

2006-01-20T22:04:00.000+08:00

napa ni.....i still cant figure out y m i missin him so much....x brenti2 kcau dia minggu ni...bile krdt da bis..i called pkai public...sanggup hari2 korek syiling kat opis...kutip kat every single one person available.....then kat umah pun tiap2 ari balik keje pun nk call gak..just 2 hear his voice...just 2 know dat he's alrite....isk....y m i like this??

n rite now i'm watchin a movie on astro...channel 8...bout a guy who's dying of a cancer...he's such a doll...did everything possible 2 make sure his wife is alrite...he treats her like a diamond...wife dia xtau msk..dia yg mskkan...

n yet d guy yg kne cancer...IS THERE EVER A RULE IN LIFE DAT SAYS dat d good one alwiz hv 2 2 b taken away EARLY than supposed????!!!!!!!!!...y do life hv 2 b so UNFAIR?????

d wife doesnt want 2 lose her hubby....dats 4 sure....so plz GOD.....LET HIM LIVE.....please...........!!!!!!

deep thoughts...

2006-01-20T11:17:00.000+08:00

tgh berpiker...am i really willing 2 work here LONG??ntahla...sumhow bile dh involve 4 quite sum time doin ACTUAL work in an organisation...i'm kinda gettin bored oredi la... so HOW??ntahla...d thot of actually gettin up early in d morning...FOR EVERY SINGLE DAY FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE...kinda sound like HELL kot....aduu..dhla kene keje under sumone..instead of them workin 4 me....hurm....sume2 nih membuatkan diri ini tertanye2 n terwonder2...coz i cud easily get a MUCH BETTER n much much MORE income..(mind u triple n zillionth time more!!) by juz doin BEL AIR!!!i know its a network marketing (not MLM yaa)...tp it has d most beneficial profit margin n oso marketing plan...(i finally understood it after my bro explainin it 2 me 4 d zillionth time!!hehehe...i ni mmg lambat sket la...)...

so...c how things go la...tp tu arr...interest in accounts r no longer there...m thinkin of pursuin work in d education line instead...lecturer ke...kindergarten teacher ke...or maybe juz a volunteer at any vet centre...those r d only jobs yg i find will b comfortin n enjoyin 2 work on la kot...hurmm..??? ~end

chinese new year la kot...

2006-01-19T13:38:00.000+08:00

smlm blek keje gayut ngn abg jap...hm..maybe m goin out 4 a date this chinese new year..yela..sume staf dia pun cuti.. i supposed clients dier pon of cosla cuti gak kan...hm..soo he's available laaa....n me cuti frm monday 2 wednesday...ehehehe....but then nk jumpe katner n bile ek...ingat nk go jln2 kat klcc je...tp nk piker psl alasan nk kua lagik...adu...fenin2...hmmm....sape2 yg baca this entry sudi2kanla membagi idea kpd ku yerk..

ngape nihh...???

2006-01-17T14:04:00.000+08:00

adushh...ngape tah...rindu banget...x ilang2 rindu ni haa..reda pun idak...duk rindu tahap maksima je manjang....dulu reti gak nk nyampah n majuk smpai seminggu x msg or call lgsg...ni udah xleh nk wat dh....msti gak nk try call or msg smpai dpt..tp mslhnye bile dh dpt ckp dia plak mmg kebetulan ngah btul2 bz or ngah pnat sesgt...so mmg dia x akan fokus sgt to wat i m mumbling or sayin or mournin n complainin about....huhuuuu....so cmne....nak mereng dh asyik merindu ni...aduuu.....RINDUNYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GoOd N SaD NeWs..

2006-01-11T14:54:00.000+08:00

GoOd NeWs??--m enjoyin my 1st two days at MaGNa BRiDGe TRaVeL n TouRs..yela..dok nengok tmpt2 travel je...putih mateku nk memilih..hihi...udah gatall sunguhh ndak kawin nehh...ekeke...

erm..okey...xleh mengulor lame2 ni...ermm..owh...n lom cite psl BaD NeWs lg eh??erm...xmau citer ah kat sinih..very2 personal matter..jus dat m praying hard 4 my hubby's best of health...love u bee...

da DPT keje!!!!

2006-01-06T14:24:00.000+08:00

hehe...hihi...da dpt keje...kat blkg umah je..kat bgnn umno tu...keje ngn travel agency...a multi-tasking job ar...sume pun kne wat...n v limited accounting jobs kot...sbb its my dad's fren's nyer company...so agak da ader rship yg baik la kot...(n now i'm worried bout my MIA status...kne keje 3 thn ngn odit firm or fully doin accounting job bru qualify)...n ni travel agency??hm...tgkla cmner...c how thing goes...tp tu la...for a salary of 850...will it b worth it 2 work there??yah..sure experience mmg akan dpt SGT BYK...sbb nti akan deal wif clients....wif tourists ciming frm overseas...hehhehee...n hopefully leh survey bestest place 2 go 4 honeymoon eh???muahahahaaaaa... ;)

bukan avoiding..he left his phone at home...silly me!!

2006-01-04T16:24:00.000+08:00

hm...he wuz not avoiding me la...he forgot 2 bring his phone 2 his office dat day...wa...malunyee...i left like what...20 msscalls kot??n 10 msgs??n he had no idea at all of wut he has done smpai i acted dat way...so when i told him bout my serba salah-ness regarding our x-jadi-date...he said "dah2...kita tutup buku..xmau ckp dh psl tu...abg x marah..abg cuma tulis je mcm tu dlm msg...xde..abg x trase apape...dah2..jgn piker apape k??nti abg try make plans 2 c u a.s.a.p...k?dah2...abg tgh drive ni..ujan lebat sgt2..(very true coz i cud hear drops of heavy rain at d back of his voice)..ok...ayg jg diri leklok ek?i love u...akum"

hm...does dat sound sincere nuff??did he really meant wut he said???yg dia x trase n all??hehe...liar..i know dia trase..tp dia sj je xmo tunjuk...enihow...mmg this is my true self...as hard n as bitter as it gonna b...he has 2 b able 2 learn 2 accept it...n try 2 undstand...if dia x leh...then sorry la...he's gonna hav 2 find another girl..(was dat really me???huaaaa...tidakkk....xmauu org lain..nk abg gakkkkk...hihi..)tp seriously...i hope he understands...

so erm...2 a v special buddy of mine...sorry shera...if i've hurt u...didnt mean it...it wuz me n emotions n pms...great combination,huh??

n 2 shidah...dont regret n balme urself 4 ruining d plan...it wasnt suppose 2 b thot of in d 1st place...totallly wrong plan...well..guess i jus gotta c how thing goes...interview tomoro...(i'll keep u guys posted on d outcome tomoro,eh?).....n sending resume 2 a travel agency near my house nxt week kot...c how things settle ar ek...end~

x jadi date...

2006-01-03T15:15:00.000+08:00

tgh sgt sedih..dahla x jadi date...now he's been avoiding me...x reply 1 msg pun..n he's not even picking up any of my calls...where did i went wrong??..wuz i wrong when i asked opinions of my frens n sort of asking 4 their permission 2 go on a 3-day date wif my bee??nk slhkan my bro 4 buyin me d topup which had lead me 2 announcin bout d interview i'm goin 4 this sunday2 my frens...n i wuz d FOOLISH one in deciding 2 blab out bout my planned date...if i didnt have d credits at dat point of time msti d date is still gonna b on kan..so nk slhkan my bro plak?haha...very cunning of me...ITS YOUR OWN FAULT...SILLY!!!! owh...n of cosla my frens tu said NO 2 d idea....but then y didnt my bee tried 2 understand my acts of sharing facts n moments of our dates wif my fwenz???instead he sulked n totally cancelled d whole thing off...mcm la i did salah yg sgt besa....then again if i didnt tell bout my so-called date....wud i b happy n contended goin 4 a date by sort-of-lying to my parents??i mean i wont b totally lying...as there wud b an involvement of an official letter....then again....

ntahlah...is it so bad dat i share stories of my precious moments wif my bee wif my fwenz??y cant he just understand dat dats part of me dat i cant stop doin??y cant he just continued d plan as it wuz??didnt he had thot of d assumptions dat my frens wud b sayin way b4 he had laid out d plan 4 me???n now nk cancell d whole damn thing off jus coz i babbled a few words 2 my fwens n he is afraid of wut theyre gonna say??

yeah..maybe i had confused him more when i called him n said dat y shouldnt we jus continue d plan like it shud b......n now he must think of me as a moron...yela..kejap ckp tu..kejap ckp ni....mane 1 ni????but.......doesnt he miss me?doesnt it hurts him dat he wont b able 2 c me??owh yeah...n d next plan of his of coming 4 a bsns deal or trip 2 k.l or s.alam n meetin me jus 4 lunch or a 1-day out will totally work out laa??y d hell didnt he thot of D 2ND PLAN WAYY B4 HE MADE D 1ST PLANNNNN?????!!!!!!even if he is here in s.alam...wud i have a justified enuf reason 2 make mama gv me d prmission 2 go out???n wut...i'm supposed 2 use d alasan of "nk gi itm" again??????same je kan--LYING osoooooooo....

tahla...sgt sedih kot.....wonder when m i gonna b able 2 meet him...just hope dat when d time finally comes...i wont forget how he looks like...........

to shera...i hope u r happy dat i'm NOT going....u won...n i lost...n i mite jus hav d probability of bein single again....gosh....damn....

ResuLTs OuT..HuHu..n MaNaGeD 2 GeT aN iNTeRVieW WiF iT!!!!!owh...n 1 more thing...planned date wif my bee...heheheheee

2006-01-01T23:52:00.000+08:00

hurm..yeap..i got 2.86 for my final cgpa degree...n yes..i know its not gud nuff but i'm proud of it....ntah...eventho sikit n sgt x memberangsangkan di mata dan telinga my future employers..let alone my family...tp i dunno..i m juz DAMN PROUD of it....pelik ek....

enihow...i've managed 2 get an interview at a non-audit firm...NBC Advisory Services..in damansara utama...next thursday...4 d position of Accounts Exec...yeah i know..like v far frm s.alam...but i'm still goin 4 d interview tho..4 d sake of familiarizing maself 2 interviews..haha tatut!!!!!

wish i cud describe d feelin when i got d fon call frm mr.tony...well actually i've already seen his number d day b4...tp x smpat angkat..n so i just assumed it wuz another anonymous miss caller...haha tp d nxt day when he called again n d minute i heard d words of.."HELLO...MAY I SPEAK TO MISS SITI???"---ahahahahhhhhh aku sgt trillllllllllllllllll.....ahernyeeee setelah menghantar like 15 resumes kot...n i finally got a resulttttt (haha...yela2...mcm x bebaloi ek..anta 15..baru dapek 1...tp its d effort n emotion dat countssss...yearghhhh!!!!x dpt nk didescribekan kepuasan ati yg i'd gone thruuuuu..huhuuuuu)

oppss..sorie...ter over emo laks..ehehe...so..now 2 my date story...erm...i'm supposed 2 hav a date ...well..not really A date...its more like a 3-days-date...wif my bee....hurm..i'm not gonna post d details of d date or d means of gettin approval 4 d date..as it has made me 2 b in a constant fightin n arguing mode wif most of my frens ...diorg sume x kasik....4 reasons i m v well aware of...which has made my bee ala2 mrajuk dh...he seems 2 not want 2 proceed wif d idea enimore...hm..susanye duk kat TENGAH2...N SGT SUSANYE NK JAGA HATI EVERY ONE!!!!!!!tp...tgkla dlu cmner ek guys...

hopefully dptla gi...n my bee x majuk dh......ishk..kena pujok thp cipan ar nihhh....ARGHHHH!!!!!

Wet World Air Panas, Pedas N9 & BIGGEST FIGHT wif mama..

2005-12-30T14:32:00.000+08:00

tekejut ek bace title kat ateh tu...hm...mmg btul pun..

tahla...da xtau cmner nk handle my mom...pusing2 ikut mane pun..last2 d blame is on me..wpun aku sikit pun x slh n klu nk pk2 blek..i wuz d VICTIM...not d pesalah!!!

tp..like wut papa said..just b patient n calm urself down..mama mmg cmtu...just let it go...x dpt pape pun if menang...it'll only make things worse...

hm...guess papa's rite...eventho we r rite..xyahla go tru all d hassle nk menegakkan kebenaran...end up kite gak yg slh...

nevertheless..at least bile gado2 tu kite realize sumthins yg kite xtau b4 this..like our mom's likes n dislikes....n oso..i get 2 go 2 wet world air panas kat pedas, n9 wif my sis n her family...mmgla pnat nk kne jadik bibik n oso at d same time tryin 2 have fun..but i really enjoyed my time there..main air ngn my nieces..wargh...trase cm jadik bdk kcik lak!!!1st time sewa plampung..n naik kat tmpt yg org salu bratur pjg tu...smate2 nak turun slide yg sgt BESH tuhhhh...haha TRULY AWESOME!!!!

tho i lost my bracelet there..n mcm sume kwn2 my sis oso tried searchin 4 it..(haha...malu je!!!)tp x jumpe gak...n tho i had d worst SUNBURN eva...but i really enjoyed d tiresome...d crowd n d adrenaline...woohooo..nti nak gi lg ahh... =}

Pee Dee trip!!

2005-12-30T12:31:00.000+08:00

hmm...actually dah sgt lame x update blog nih...almost 1 month dh...n now baru nk flashback balik..citer psl d trip 2 PD..erm..besh sgt2 g PD arituh...finally got d chance 2 spend time wif my 3 close n bestest fwenz--SHIDAH N SOFIA...3 of us checked into d same room..togeder wif Qmal..imagine 4 org tido kat katil queensize tuh..haha...we had fun!!owh lupe...erm kitorg gi sane konvoi 13 keta..wuisy..besar2an tul..kalah rombongan kawin!!n i wuz stucked in yasmin's car..wif her bee aizat..nih sebab daya kecik had 2 cancel her duty as our drebar at d v last minit ler...akak dia sakit...hmm...nvmind..at least i got 2 know how it wuz n wut it felt like seein lovebirds in a car..pe lg..aku berangan it wuz me n my bee in d front seat laa.....hik!!

those 3 days really meant a lot 2 me..despite d saddest part dat i didnt get 2 meet my hubby at all..(he wuz in sgpore..n he wanted 2 come n c me already..tp titbe dia dpt invitation 2 go n visit d lab in sgpore's science centre..aN offer dat he said was a LIFETIME chance...n so he cant decline it...) of course..i was so mad n angry at dat time..i hung up while he was talkin n explaining bout d reason he cant come..n i sent few not-so-polite- msgs to him after dat for cancelling my DREAM date at d v last minute!!! n i wuz only ok after hearin shidah's naggin n marah2 at me for reacting like a small girl!!--"after all..he called 2 say he didnt come..dpd dia diam je x ckp pape n x dtg???"--hehe..thanx 4 d reality check beb...

so..back 2 d activities done during those 3 days--ade sukaneka..barbeque.."win,lose or draw"...endless mandi laut activities...n my team got d most number ones in d activites done...hahah..surprisingly eh..members comprising of hazli, shidah, sue, aji, ila, an, jue, nana,sofia, n azpa...hehehehe....we had TONS OF FUN!!!especially ms win lose or draw tuh..haha..sure had sum tuff time describing d word KANSER for "seorang doktor sedang memeriksa seorang pesakit kanser payudara"...dhla kene teka SEBIJIK2 EXACT words...baru menang...luckily in d last round my team got d most score..thanx to sue yg managed 2 teka d word WHEELER for d phrase "3org budak naik motor, sorang buat wheeler, sorang uat superman, sorang lagi kena eksiden" n yayy we won!!

me,shidah, aji, su, n grup leader; hazli main game sepakbola...ehehe..1st haf shida wuz d goalie..tp masuk 2nd haf aku da x lrt..akula plak jadik goalie...huhu..barula tau rupenye main sepakbole ni SGT2 memenatkan da....uhuhukkk...next..dlm game isik air laut dlm botol....pun my team got 1st..botol yg paling penuh..walaupun menang dgn kelebihan ketipuan sket...ehehehe..thanx 2 our team leader..HAZLI..[aku x pnah pun hang out or ckp2 ngn hazli b4 this..but he turns out 2 b a really cool fren actually.. :) ] and last game yg our team managed 2 get no.1 is d "jalinan kasih" game..team members kene cari n use anytg that they have at dat point of time in order to sambung2 it 2 make d longest line possible within 3 minutes...x kesa la tali kasut ke..baju slua ke..cabut rambut ke(ni idea acik..d instructor..haha..apekah??cabut rambutlaa acik??)..n nti material2 yg dah disambung tu akan ditarik..n sape2 yg putus sambungannye is disqualified...hehe..n guess wut did my group do??since kitorg ramai pompuan, n all of us pkai tudung..so we masuk kat bwh tangge nearby..tutup pintu (n praying hard dat no one will turun using dat tangga!!) n bukak sume tudung..ikat sume tudung2 tu siap2...then hulur kat hazli suh dia smbungkan ngn baju dia or anytg dat he wuz able 2 find outside..hahahah...n WE WON AGAIN!!!!

tp..sgtlah mdukecitekan bile d sponsors of d hampers ckp...yg placing 1,2,3 tu saje je utk suke2..pdhal mmg sume team akan dpt hamper...cheh...awat x habaq awai2..buek ponek yo den main boto2!!eheheh...x pa la...janji enjoy!!!!!!!

n ms kat PD gak i had d chance 2 duduk temenung sorang2 kat tepi pantai kul 7 pg(sejukk gilee bebbb!!)...tgk ciptaan Allah..masya allah...cantikkk sgt2!!!though dlm hati tu agak takut gak kot2 tibe2 tsunami mlande ke kan..but i just prayed in my heart hopin dat nuthin bad will happen...n nk jadik cerite..while i wuz observin d sea n sky...titibe a rainbow muncul pelan2 RITE B4 MY VERY EYES!!!!waaaaaaaaa...ternganga la gak jap...bukan x nah tgk pelangi...tp ni btul2 dpn mate weh...hhehehe...waaa still teringat lg d emotions i felt at dat time...simply UNDESCRIBABLE!!!

n ade 1 nite tu..all of us..about 50 kot...gi serbu satu kedai mkn seafood....n its been quite sum time since i had any seafoods....so....waa balun laaa pe lg...n it wuz quite cheap oso...so ok lahh ..we went 2 bed wif happy stomachs....ehehehee...

mase last day...i went back in dayah lamien's car plak..sbb yanti n najwa wuz not goin back 2 s.alam..so b4 we bertolak 2 go 2 najwa's open house...adela sesi nangis2 jap kat parking lot...ehehe...n so dats bout it...my story on d trip to PD.... =}

dah bis final exam for my final semester...yearghh!!!!

2005-11-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

hehehehehe....yearghhh.,...merdekaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!ahernye...after sum 3 gruesome week of 5 case n situation n logic thinking papers....i'm freeeee!!!!!!

hehehehehh....muahahaha....n goin 2 port dickson this monday....my batch's trip actuallynyer....tp i plan 2 spend my time there wif SOME1 else instead--WHO??--hehehehe...my bee la...shayangnyer kat dia!!!

tarikh bersejarah....24th november 2005...my 1st date after 2 years...we were introduced by my bestest fwen...shidah...n we had only known each other for like 2 n a haf weeks...n then BAMM 1st date!!hehehe...erm...this 34 yr-ol kuantan gentleman brought his co worker; Faizal along on dat nite..(huh..beriye2 diaa suruh aku dtg sorang2..wargh!!!!) eventho date kat pkns's D & R restaurant jerk (i wuz kinda hopin 4 sumthin little more romantic actually..hehe) nevertheless it turn out 2 b a fun n romantic nite!! if only i cud describe d feelin ms aku enter d restaurant (they arrived first)..ya allah...kaki,tgn sjuk mgigil!! jantung lak..mak oi...kalah bullet train!!

haha..i reaaly hv forgotten wuts it like 2 go on a 1st date...hihi trase cm bdk kcik dpt gula2 plak--sgt hepi!! (well...despite d fact dat we had d 'really-getting-2-kno-each-other' talk kat dlm keta dier kat parking lot makro shah alam jerk..urgh...apekah??)...but it turned out romantic coz i felt a tingling sensation in my stomach everytime he introduced me to his fwenz--yup..we had 2 meet his frenz after eatin coz he was actually here in shah alam pun for a bsns deal..so i had 2 follow em 2 makro cos 1 of his fwenz nk g shopin kat makro...n all of his fwenz were really sweet n polite!! (mind u all available gals out there..my bee has a fren aged 34, manager of a factory, earning rm7k per month...n still single!!!so...if u gals happen 2 read thru this...feel free 2 contact me for further infos,huh??) =)

so..when we had d heart-2-heart talk at makro prkg lot...i told him everything bout my life...n he told me his....and at d end of it...he gave so many indications dat he wanted 2 spend more time wif me...bla..bla...bla...x ingat dh...sbb dh sgt terawang2....wakaka...apekah???hihi!!!

so...xtau nk tulis pe dh...juz dat hopefuly i'll b able 2 go 2 PD this monday...n spend sum memorable time wif my bee...mr.kamarul b. azman...kuantan bsnsman...luv u mucho, mucho!!!!!

kompius..

2005-11-09T15:12:00.000+08:00

hurm..ni tgh study leave week...ader gak maser nk merewang kat liberi yerk...x snonoh tul....pg td gi tution ngan my pak ude kat lvl 11...haha bygkan..bende yg blaja 1 sem..pg td bru phm...thoroughly laktuh...ekeke...nmpk sgt x focus dlm klas ek...welll...hope 2 get d best of it...my final sem dh ni kan...no regrets...

as for my 'kompius' title...juz gonna give a bit insight to the story...yup...d story of 'kamarul'..hehehe...ntah...i dont wanna get excited way too early...but....hopefully its for real...juz wait n c la ek...i'll log on nxt week 4 more updates....n hopefully by then our meet this friday jadikla...if not..kena la tunda my updates to d following week...

okie dokie..gotta go study...my books awaits me in my room...(n my katil also..sob!sob...huarghhhh!!)

razlan or rozi??due2 pon punahhh

2005-10-31T00:42:00.000+08:00

huargh..haru2...razlan got merce..tp nk get married nxt year...rozi plak lg haru...dok citer pasai keje manjang...dah tu..lagu mana????

malash lagiks???? (parah nih!!)

2005-10-28T11:27:00.000+08:00

aduss...still not startin my revisions ar....arghhhhh aduiii cmner nihs????ok2...lpas nih ek??ek?? =D

malashnyer!!

2005-10-27T13:05:00.000+08:00

hurm...lame kan x update??didnt haf d time 2...well..erm....kat lab library nihs..had 2 cum here 2 study..cant stand my mom's nagging at home...i'm d one who's havin d finals..but she's d one panickin...so i decided to make her less worried by cummin here instead..at least in her mind i'm studyin...(padehal sebok membloging!!ya allah..teruknye anak!!!)

hurm....last monday menjadi saksi to d END of d classes n presentations n assgmts in my CAMPUS LIFE...yup..ended wif an all-red theme for my group's Risk Mgmt presentation...t'wuz good...but cud've been better...hell lantaklaa..dh lepas dh pun..experienced quite a shock on d prstn day..got 1 grup where all of d female members wore pant suits..n they looked gorgeous!! well..wif me n my practical kat gomen..mmgla x nah tgk girls that actually wore those kindof attires..n actually lookin DAMN good in em!!hurm...ade hati nk wat pant suit ar lpas nih..hehehe....

n after d presentation on monday..i practically bermastautin-ed at cidah's room until yesterday...ntah knape i really felt sad..n i mean REALLY2 SAD mase nk go back...i've nvr felt this kindof feelin when i'm bout 2 leave my seri puteri skool...xde feelin pon kot mase tuh..tp mlm td sgt sedih n sampai mengalir air mate!!!!...n cidah cam pelik biler aku nangis gile2...i guess it is true when ppl say "STUDENT'S LIFE IS D BEST LIFE EVER!!"...n i'm gonna miss it coz t'wuz d bestest part of my life...learnt n experienced so much things...n also understood A WHOLE LOT more of ppl's fiils on LIFE...all dat had changed n made me a better person...

so after this...kena btul2 focus on my studies la nmpknye...at least kena btul2 puaskan hati sdiri of my own effort...no matter wut d outcome's gonna b..hopefully good lah...(despite d fact dat i'll still haf 2 work in d gomen after this--special permintaan from my PARENTS...hate 2 dissapoint em..so haf 2 agree lor..plus..got sum encouragement frm mr.adrian; sofia's future boss..giler untung dat gurl..got d opportunity 2 work in an international environment...will b exposed 2 so many things..hm...rezeki ko,dear...i wanted dat job badly..tp tu la..dont haf as much as quality as she does when it comes to general knowledge n PR...all d best 2 u,cay??)

got few 'lessons learnt' during my night out wif sofia n adrian...lessons which r only applicable 2 me kot...haha...sgt klaka...1stly..pegang ur hangbag tightly or at least neatly on ur lap..n never let it jatuh ke bawah meja(argh..apekah??cmner leh tjatuh kat bwh meja n org lain yg lalu lalang yg notice, instead of me..huargh..malu gile!!)..second-biler nk mintak contact number pade org yg DAH KEJE...mintak his bsns CARD...not directly his number!!!!!!(adus...malu gileeee mcm aku nih nak flirt ngn dia je coz mintak his direct number..argh....my mistake!!!!) n lastly-biler masuk kreta org lain yg sgt besa n sgt lavish (n i tell u..gile besa --> nissan murano!! n my mouth wuz actually terlopong once we got in d car!!!)--owh, back 2 d point..hihi make sure he's not on d fon when ur greetin him wif a 'hi' or 'how r u' (argh..sgt malu gak.beriye2 ckp "hi"..pastu cam pelik biler dier x 'hi' balik--rupe2ye he's on d fon...argh!!!b more alert in future...cat,puhleeezzzz!!)

hmm..xpela...there's alwiz a 1st time 4 everytg,kan??so i had 2 learn it d hard way...so wut??at least i know now..dpd x tau lgsg,rite??dat wuz my 1st time kluar ngn a very,very much older guy..but luckily he wuz v young at heart..so mcm xde la susa sgt nk klik ngn dia..plus he also dh keje ngn lots of malays...so he understands a lot of malay words...which makes it easier 2 say sumthing when u donno d english words or phrases for it..huhuhhh!!

well...despite his over-friendliness mase he wanted 2 call me pussy instead of kathy..(haha..apekah??pussy laa??sgt2 x sesuai!!) tp seb baik dia cpat2 realize yg i wuz not dat comfy wif dat name...so instead sofia recommended him just callin me "cat"--heloo...only my bestfriends call me that!!!--urgh...wut d hell...bia la...lantak..though t'wuz kindof akward hearing a stranger callin me over n over again by d name "cat"..haha..

so...kena stop blogging dh la kot...haf 2 start my pejuangan wif my far subject...2 all my itm fwens..gud luck yahh..all d best...n 2 shera yg juz tinggal 1 mo ppr...lucky u...pray 4 me,huh???

self realization...

2005-10-06T16:53:00.000+08:00

Today I had my Big Bang…wut izit??here’s my side of story…

Lately I’ve been d one who volunteers to do d final edit when it comes to doin group asgmts …all coz I had a ltop..well,not mine..my dad’s actually…tp tah nape this sem mcm I like baru cam brani nk tanye mama or abg- “bz ak today?got prestn bel air or not?can I borro d ltop??nk wat asgmt ar…leh ak??” ß n apparently d answer is yes , bole pinjam n like mcm abg can even send it to my hostel….n barula cam tsedar…y didn’t I do like this during my previous sems??well..come 2 think of it..dlu kat seroja…n like mcm 8 org in a room..not really a room aite?more of a dorm..wif d world wars n all..mmg x tpiker la kot nk use ltops….n plus there wuz d seroja cc kan…

Apart from dat..baru aku rs I really2 involve in d production of d project…esp odit ar…coz I tried like finding d articles sgt2 lame kat library…n printing..n editing n all…mmg sgt byk kos involved..tp cam puas ati..tah nape…n come 2 think y did I even wanted 2 volunteer 2 do d final odit ek?coz of attention??cud b…tp end up not me pun yg finishkan grup asgmt far ek…kunon nk abiskan…hahaha…pdn muke..seb baikla ade last minute heroes ek..seriously bershining2 armour diorg ah..ekeke…

Or izit coz I don’t wanna b d 1 2 b blamed of not doin/contributin anytin 2 d project??sop pon ader je ltop kan…so y me???y u cat???ntahla..myb its d sense of obligation n responsblty kots..eheks…puji diri sdiri laks….

Seb baikla prstn td dikira orait..n yg plg x thn when she said those MAGICAL WORDS…”good presentation of corporate governance…very detailed…so u can present in d next class for this topic…good..good!" huargh..if only u cud c d relieve ness n unbelievable-ness on my face time tuh..tho d article pun cidah cyg yg carik kan….tp kan…td la d only time yg I really2 presented WELL…(to my own standard la kan…bukan nk bangge diri…tp salunye I will like stumble n mumble n gagap2 when it comes to presentationàesp prstn MAF ye…ntah nape…tp tadi…dgn my tumdrive xleh nk open kat ltop puan..so ended we presented gak wif cidah’s version of last saved prstn (yg sgt byk xde bnde2 baru like I had in my tumdrive..huargh!!!) n come 2 think bout it..aku actuallynye sgt blur td…after I had known dat my indiv far asgmt wuz out of topic..n dat d lecturer didn’t give me any marks (meaning zero la kan??)…lg la wat aku blur…n d blurrness kindof showed itself bile aku berangan2 time bebdak lain dlm grup aku tgh present..diorg byk kali kne cuit aku suoh tuka next slide…seb baik d whole class mcm phm2 sdiri keblurrness aku is coz I cant open my tumbdrive…hmm if only they know d real cause kan….n when it comes 2 my turn 2 present….aku x prepare sgt pon speech sbenanye…tp main taram je….(I guess mase tuh aku da cam mls nk lyn…dgn my mind still on d out-of-topic asgmt…n d thot of kne REDO it…n at d same time piker nk present lg…so juz cam blasah jela present!!!)..luckily enuff d lecturer gave our grup her teaching aid-tool…kindof laser beam yg she alwiz use 2 tunjuk points at d projector screen..hahaha…turns out I’m d only 1 who used it 4 presenting my part of corp gov..ekeke…mmg tgn aku gigil gile ms mule2 tunjuk dat laser-like tool kat screen…but then tibe2 puan got a fon call….n ms tuh aku xtau cmne nk explen..tp tibe2 sume gigil2 tuh ilang…n I continued my presentation like I had prepared it for ages before..(padehal I also dunno where those words dat came out frm my mouth came from..eheks…) of cos, mmg STILL ade moments where I mcm ilang wordingz a.k.a ter’lost’ jap…tp tah cmaner leh tercover…n 1 really2 weird thing is dat I practically cud hear MYSELF talking….d way my slang-ness..d sound of my voice when pronouncing certain words..(nih sume puan MAF la nyer psl..she wuz d 1 who highlighted on d ‘slang-ness’ dat I had while presentg on a maf topic dluh2…she said dat “I can c dat u hav a slang when presenting..n dats good…except dat ur point isn’t really….”hehehe xmo smbung ayat dier psl dier komen on my points..sgt x memotivasikan….i juz wanted 2 highlight on d compliment she said,rite?? Eheks!! actually nye aku mmg x nah prsn I got dat ability….n even more terkedu bile qmal (1 of d best students of my fac) asked me how izit dat I can present so well in front??? ahaks mcm nk tgelak pon ader..adeke patut besh student tanye student yg sgt x baguih nih haa??

hihi…neways…so bile qmal tanye soklan nih aku cam terkonfem ar ngn my ability satu nih…tp klu korg sume nk tau la kan…I didn’t really became this GOOD (according 2 those who admitted la kan…) in one nite…I wuz actually a VERY,VERY QUIET person b4 this..esp kat high skool dluh…believe it or not..I wuz actually considered as d ‘budak surau’ time tuh…siap kne suoh jdik prefect biro agame lgik..n at dat time..i didn’t have any confidence in myself AT ALL….i gained d ability 2 speak in itm la…psl sgt byk prestn knew at kat dpn klas..n dpn everybody in d class kan…n erm I think it kinda pays also 2 b good buddies like sofia..some1 u can argue n talk in English n also 2 know few new words or expressions…n maybe my INTEREST in d English language itself made it possible…I’ve alwiz had an obsession on d language..sgt suke bace english wordings on birthday cards or postcards..i dunno y..but I find d English language sumhow expresses emotions n feelings much better in words as compared to malay language…eyy aku x merendahkan bahasa ibundaku…bahasa melayu also has its own special ways of expressing emotions n feelings…juz dat I prefer English more…its not overly-expressed n d words come out juz nice….hurm…try comparing “really am pissed off laa wif dat guyyy!!!” wif “eiii bengangnye aku ngn mamat tuh!!!!” à to me, I prefer English..coz it states out emotion of very angry at dat point of time..tp x melarat angrynye tuh…as compared to b.mlayu…even d word bengang dh mcm kasar…so a small thing or misunderstg could become a big thing juz coz of wrong usage of words…n this has happened tau…to me…hehehe…but nevertheless d malay language pun ade part2 of it yg sgt nice..like when couples call each other “waakk…” or “yang” in a very MANJA way….aduiii..mmg x thn…n xleh nk compare to “dearr….” or “honey” or even “darling” in English…(hehe..so sasape yg pro b.melayu tuh jgn mara aku yerk…aku da highlight kebest-an dua2 language tauuu)

So…biler da jdik cam tadik (kite berbalik smule pade crite prestn far..hehe)…everytg in this life requires practice,perserverance n patience…n most importantly..d courage or braveness to explore n conquer ur fears…I learnt 2 do dat in my final sem…wished I had d courage 2 do it earlier…tp nk wat cmner kan..at least I got d chance 2 learn it now..rather than later,rite??nk tau pe aku wat??i bought 5 kain elas (yg jual2 kat gerai2 kat foyer menara itm tuh..coz I nvr had d experience 2 really buy kain 2 make baju kurungs…tp bile dh happens dat leh cam borak2 n kamcing2 ngn akak yg jual kain tuh…so end up me buyin 5 kains….(sesuai ke??haha ntah)..so then cam piker la mane nak anta kain2 ni..nk kne carik tailor la plak…nk anta kat my mom’s tailor cam jauh sgt la plak..kat sremban nun…n plus cam xmo kot anta kat ctuh..kang my mom bising lak bile tgk I beli BYK GILE kain…yg ader kat umah tuh pon melambak x anta lgik!! (haa this is also 1 of d reason y I decide 2 send 2 tailor lain—sbb mak aku suke sgt kumpul kain main yg sgt rajin dibeli oleh bapakku…n end up nti anta byk2 kat akak kat semban tuh.,..n then nti my dad gak yg bising psl skali gi semban kne bayo duit like 200 for 5,6 bajus skaligus..hahaha…tu la habit mak aku..n tambah lak aku mmg dh takda bju kurung baru…n klu nk diikutkan…even if my mom nk anta kain2 yg cantik2 sket n mahal sket kat akak tu….bukannye aku leh nk pkai pon..sbb nti eventually pun my mom je yg ade kuase veto nk pkai those bajus…n me nti sure my mom cam x trust n akan constantly remind me 2 take gud care of d baju..jgn ganas2…n nti end up she will want me 2 send d baju home—for her 2 basuh it..takut if aku basuh nti rosak bju tu….huaaaa m still n akwiz gonna b momma’s LITTLE doter laaaaaaa….so then barula tpiker where do my k.long anta her bajus kan…hehe biler da dpt tau her tailor lives nearby her house..ekeke..korg pon dh leh guess kan my next actions ape…huhu..i sent 5 baju-s skaligus…at d cost of rm150…cmpur prices of d kains..adela aku spent around rm300…wuihsyy…byk gak ek…giler aku kan…so this week n nxt week will b my new-baju-kurung week…ekeke…ader 1 baju..red in colour…sgt cntikk….my faveret lah..psl kain dier pon cm lain…very2 nice I tell u..hihi…

So..as a result of bju baru-s+developed d-found-ability of speaking+d courage 2 go for private tutor classes wif my pak ude+realizing d fact dat HAVIN a BF is not a really BIG matter after all…I think now I realize dat I’m only fit 2 hav a bf when I’m fully comfortable n confident wif d REAL me…n most importantly…when I can FULLY ACCEPT myself..d way I burp after kenyang mkn…I burp bile kpale ngn perut pnuh angin…my clumsy-ness when handling everytg…my panic attacks when it comes 2 days when aku sgt2 srabut n slebet…my suke-buat-muke-ness bile I hav 2 work wif ppl dat I don’t like or don’t prefer…n also my SGT-X-TAU n BLURRNESS attitude when it comes to directions n places…wahaha…n currently pun still learning bout d realself of me..(from lots of sources—hangin out wif daya(this gurl is not-so-quiet after all..n sgt2 indpndt I tell u!)…wif aida n nadi(haha..thanx a bunch 4 d tips on handbags, u guys rock!!)…also wif k.iya n k.nad(they’re like so grrreatt 2 hang out wif..tp sangap ar nk tman deme2 neh shopingg!!)..hoho...so still n will continue learning d sweetness of life n d greatness of God 4 gvg me d opportunity 2 learn d lessons in my life THIS way.. =)

tolak 3 markah...

2005-10-04T10:36:00.000+08:00

pade hari ini...aku dgn banggenye mengannounce kan bahawe aku x pegi klas FAR (KLAS YG AKU X PENAH PON PONTENG ye...mind dat fact!!!!)...n reasonnye pon kukoh--sbb nk siapkan grup asgmt presentation for petang nih.....(though i kno dat its my fault 4 not bein able 2 finish wut i shud last nite..tp...3 markah beb...aduii..)...so d lecturer sgt narah kot coz rmai la gak yg x dtg pg td...(n i think 4 d same reason as me la kot)....so she decide 2 tolak 3 markah frm our total carry marks for the final...sgt sedeyla......aku x nah ponteng pon..n salu dlm klas pon aku yg thegeh2 nk jwp soalan2 dier yg x penahnye bejawap tuh...tnsn aku...xperlah...dh naseb aku....nk wat cmner...

patutnye aku sgt suke hati sbb arinih pkai bju baru...tp jdik sgt moody cozof dat fact....HUARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bad mood giler..

2005-09-28T18:17:00.000+08:00

harini asal tah..titibe je bad mud gilerz..thp cipan tul...smpai cidah pon tkene tmpias...sori wak..i guess pms kot...

smlm tgk 'cinta hati' balik naik keta honda accord dia..smpat jln2 togeder2 lagik!tp bukan bdua2an yerk..ader cidah n lily..hehehe...ala tp cian dier...kaki dier mlecet...tdengkot2 jln...pkai kasut BARU nyer psl...siap emphasis on d word BARU mase tanye asal dier jln cam tempang je kan...cehh..klu aku tau..mmg aku x tanye!!

last 2 days bjaye mengambik gamba my 'cinta hati di 24-hour room'..hihi amik 2 gamba tu!!tp x clear ar kan..coz amik from far..nk amik dekat2 sgan la plak...ehh...gatal tul..arituh dh ader chance nk amik..depan2 mata lagik..hihi tp..cannot laa..too shy..ahaks!!!hihi...cidah tanyer "ey brape byk cinta hati daa nk ader"..hurm...so far 2 je kot..n will stay 2 jela kot...hehehe

sabtu arituh gi jln ng cidah n her bf n daya...gi night safari...kat zoo negara (any1 been there??) --hurm..nk ckp x besh,tp ader gak momentos yg besh..myb coz g ngn fwenz kot..tu pslla yg xbesh pun leh jdik besh ek..ermm...kitorg smpai around 9pm..bf cidah tanye kat guard tuh zoo tutop kul bpe? "11 bang" n we were like -alemak,smpat ke??alah,redah jela....alang2 dh smpai kan?jauh tu..dr shah alam beb...xkan nk pata balikk..so..kitorg smpat la tgk tikus terbeso kat dunie (capybara)..tgk badak air (d bdk air wuz standing gile dekat dgn kitorg!!)..tgk kucing utan yg 'alim' (d cat tawaf pusing its cage for like 7 times kot..then trus landing kat 1 spot n angkat kpale dier jap then trus kiok tertido..kucin tuh bace doa tawap kot b4 dier tdo..heh)..then saw those EVER SO CUTE RACCOONSS--sume ader 5 ekor in their cage..n they were sleeping in position yg sama n SGT CUTEE!!!)...hurm..then tgk zirafah n zebras (cidah kate "trase mcm kat afrika la plak!" hehe)...n then tgk gak those HUGE n like zaman ancient punye IKAN (very10x d besar la i tell u...ader 1 spesies ikan tuh..looks like kelisa..only 10 times larger!!) ader cage penguin..tp penguin da tido...so x dpt tgk...huhu...erm we all went on d train (sbb cidah kate penat nk jln2 around d zoo n like mcm SERAM kot nk jln2 at night like dat...hehe)...owh,n we did also went 2 c d night show--ader helang,raccoons,otters n sea lions!!but mcm sikit sgt animals yg perform dat nite..i guess rmai yg da tdo kot..(sesuai ke animals sbut ramai??hehe)...

after abis touring d zoo for rm10...then kitorg gi carik a place 2 eat..kat restoran kawanku..around area medan kg tungku...n i saw mohd zafri there..eatin wif his gf..new ke lame ke i x amik pot la plak kan...he's changed..he got sideburns now..(aku xtau nk classify as hemsem or not..only i think he loooks betta without em..) yes..mmg aku sdey..coz he's like dh moved on..hving new rships n all...n i'm here still alone..no bf-s yet...huhu..n yes..i dah pnat nangis2 kat k.iya n shera n daya n lynn taib..(tq so much 4 ur supports..really preciate it..only i still dun haf d guts 2 b strong yet...still gonna b as vulnerable as a little child until i finish my pms kot...)

yes shera.....i'll try my HARDEST not to remeber him anymore...d fact dat i actually thot dat he wanted 2 get back together (after d msgs dat he sent 2 me n 2 cidah on frenster)....i wuz totally wrong..n totally misunderstood his intentions...myb dia mmg juz nk stay frenz n his msgs were juz pure --"how r u? hpe u're doin fine"-- kindof msg...so itu yg mbuatkan aku lg sdih,shera...(d fact dat aku mcm dh termalu oleh accusation/assumption yg aku sdirik cipta! yg x brasaskan any evidence pon!)

so now i gotta pull myself back together...haf 2...4 d sake of all my neverending tests..assigmts n projects...this weekend lak kena babysit my nephews...nk tolak x smpai ati...kang mane akak aku nk campak budak2 tu..mama lak sure nti bising2 n like ungkit2 psl penat jg those two askars...so m left wif no choice except hav 2 babysit my CUTE n ever so CUDDLY nephews tuhhh..pnat pon pnat la....worth it rite??n plus..baju2 kat umah k.rohaya pon da siap...bolela amik skali..hehehe...nxt whole week pkai baju barula akuuu...hehehehehhe...

so...objective of going online kat library today x tcapai....kunonnye nk carik article for AIS asgmt (eh,yg ni accomplished la!!)...n pastuh nk print ODIT's n AIS's saved documents..(hehe...yg nih x tbuat la beb..x smpat..library nk close dh..so accrued to tomoro lah nmpknye ek...hihihi...) hurgh...lpas nih nk kne mnapak turun ke hostel....n mlm ni ader cramah 'Remaja & Seks' kat Pusat Islam...hehehehe...nk gi ker x ek??mcm besh....tgk advert dia..siap tulis wordings "nak buat seks??dengar ape kata dr.haznilah" actuallynye aku blasah je name pceramah tuh..x ingat..tp mmg ader dr. laa...hurm..tgk ar...klu kakiku ini bg approval..heheh smpaila aku kat P.I tuh tonite...=)

--hua..mama baru call!!!rindunye!!!smlm baru trase rindu banget pada mamaku!!!!!slame nih cam eksyen je bile org kate rindu kat mak la..ayah la...tp smlm i really2 did miss my mama...n my family..most of all....RINDU MICKEY!!!!!!!!!!!!sure da gmok gilerz lahanat tuhs...hihihi lahanat but extremely TERPAHAT dihatiku.....sabo yer mickey ku...lgik 2 bulan jerk...afta that i'll gomol u each n every dayyy!!!!!!!!! (ey..mickey tuh KUCING aku laaaa...pe yg korang piker haaaaaaaaa....) =)

so..signing out now...gotta try 2 do my editings for my ais asgmt n try 2 print my odit articles....nk setelkan gak...yayy...baru tau lab library nih tutop kul 9.30...muahahaaa...sambung KERJA la nmpknye bebbbbb!!!

adioss~~

weird..but true..

2005-09-19T16:57:00.000+08:00

hm..how shall i start ek...occay la..stret 2 d point je la...abanz sent a friendster msg to shidah yesterday...sayin he wuz sory 4 everything he had done...n hoped she wuz in d best of health..n dat hopefully her bestfren (which is me) is also fine...[hahahh..wonder do u guys get d real meaning in his msg--> maknanye i m not d wrong 1 in d rship we had la kan..rite?rite?hmm..n wonder y he keeps on sendin apologetic msgs thru frenster..last time he sent it to me..this time 2 shidah instead..hahahh...sure dier tgh desperate giler kan skg..hahahaaaa tu la..sape suoh x treat me well when he shud hav aite?? :) i m so happy wif myself!! :)

so here's a preview of d msg dat he sent 2 shidah..

Original message from abaNz:
sorry 4 everthing aite.. yang berlalu tuh biar la berlalu aite..
skank pun dah medeka.. hope ko sihat rite.. sama dengan beshfrenz ko ..
sorry for everthing girl..

haha..so???wut a relief 2 kno dat i'm NOT D 1 2 B BLAMED 4 D RSHIP!!!!for so many times i've been tellin 2 myself dat i'm d 1 who didnt quite understood him...i'm d 1 who didnt give freedom 2 him...i'm d 1 who didnt try hard enuff 2 make d rship work...but now dat he's showing his efforts of sendin those apologetic msgs to me once dulu..n even now to shidah plak..shows dat he's sumhow begging or at least hoping for forgiveness frm me n shidah,rite??

:) hm..so happy today..very,very happy :)

NAK BF!!!!! (haha..2 those who r tired of my mourns...a must read!!)

2005-09-18T12:22:00.000+08:00

i've been mourning bout havin a bf waaay 2 long,aite?? =) yeah..yeah..i kno...tapi KENAPA yek?kdg2 aku pelik gak ngn diri sdirik..Y is it dat HAVIN bf matters SO MUCH 2 me??2 hav sum1 2 talk 2 & tell things about??IS DAT IT??bole jerk do those xtvts wif gurlfrenz,kan??n their REACTIONZ will b like SO MUCH BETTER pun,compared 2 a guy's exprexxionz,kan??so..SAL AKU NAK SGT BF??2 b CARED & 2 CARE..as in 2 b LOVED & 2 LOVE??hm......so..here's a sneak preview of d conversation dat i had wif my brother [haha..bole pakai gak rupenye pale otak abgku sorang nih!! ;)] ....

"kenapa kena tgk org lain??y shud u ALWIZ COMPARE urself wif others??suke sgt ckp dialog -->ala..beshnye tgk sume org g DATING...ader BF...bile weekend je siap2 pkai LAWA2..makeup2 nk g dating..BESHnye ader pakwe...<-- "adik nak experience a SERIES of dating relationship (meaning couple n clash BYK2 kali..lps clash ader je GANTI)..or nak jumpe SORANG je n then TRUS KAWIN n KEKAL sampai bila2???"
"tak semestinya bile SENANG dpt ganti after clash tu means dat it will last 4 ever...kita xtau pe yg akan jadi in FUTURE...adik nak bagi ur future hubby ur MOST love or nk bagi yg SAKI BAKI je(after d so many coupling experience u've been thru)??...makin BYK hubungan yg kita involve in...makin SIKITlah sayang yg kita akan bagi to our SOULMATE..
"biarlah dapat LAMBAT sikit...tp d TIMING is rite..n masing2 dh cukup READY n cukup CIRI2..in every aspect...n hopefully kekallah smpai aher hayat..." "even awek abang tu (yg aku consider as sgt lawa n kurus tu) pun x de bf pon b4 i proposed 2 her 2 b her bf...2 this statement i think ape yg abg aku try 2 indicate is dat even org yg aku claim as lawa n kurus tuh pon xkan ade bf klu blom smpai masenye dat gurl jumpe abg aku..so d same concept applies 2 me la kan...[ei,btul ke assumption aku nih ek??]
"ever heard of couples yg dh 7 ,8 thun bcinte..tp last2 x jadik kwin pon???NAK KE JADIK CMTUH??(abg aku dh bengang gile ngn aku time nih kot!!hihi!!) pnat2 bcinte n menginvestkan sgt byk duit..tp end up NOT GETTIN MARRIED pon...NAK??!! tu blom masuk citer yg dh kawin for 10,20 yrs tp snang2 je nk CERAI n atas alasan X SEHALUAN..or X KENAL D SPOUSE ANYMORE..even more shockin..sum said yg X LEH NAK TRIMA D 'REAL' SELF OR TRUE NATURE OF THEIR PARTNER--helo??dh bcinte bagai nak rak smpai 7,8 tahun tp x knal2 gak ur partner...apa citer nihh???xkanla x knal2 gak wthin those LONG DREADFUL YEARS???"

hm...guess he's quite rite ek...those senarios DO HAPPEN n not surprisingly ppl STILL GET IN LOVE..4 d BESTt of it...4 d LOVELY part of it...=) but if its FATED dat a couple's marriage/dating period is not 2 b DAT LONG...then they'll juz hv 2 ACCEPT it loh..i mean dat IS d parts n parcel of life...n NO ONE IS SPARED...no one........

however..God's alwiz has His wyas of helping,kan??..there's solat istikharah...doa penyeri muka(sape nak?aku ader!!hehehe)...doa cpat dpt jdoh...doa jdoh kekal...etc....

so...i guess..in d end...its up 2 us 2 determine wut kindof life we wanna live..wut kindof relationship we wanna b in...wut kindof contribution we wanna gv 2 d ppl who hv raised us..n wut kindof repayment we wanna make 2 d Almighty...so...

MAKE UP UR MIND..N CHOOSE WISELY!!!! =)

ACCA talk..

2005-09-16T17:33:00.000+08:00

arinih..tepat kul 2.45pm...i had to attend a talk on ACCA n CIMA...supposedlynye my name wuz in a list of students yg kne jumpe dean..psl result kot..hihi..mmg aku SEDAR aku antare insan yg TIDAK NGETOP di fakultiku...(sob!sob! salah sdirik pun..maleh blaja kan??!!)..neways...tp apetah mistake yg d mgmt of lvl 14 dh wat..so end up d rest of d list bein given d opportunity 2 join d ACCA n CIMA talk..hihi..besh gak talk tuh..byk gak arr insights yg aku dpt...n lps talk tuh sume org pon mcm bekobar2 gile nk wat acca ngn cima after grad..haha..yg dh konfem nk kje lps grad pon titibe leh nk tuka pikiran..ekeke..lawak tull..

as 4 me..still x sure lg la...actuallynye yg mbuatkan so ramai org nk wat acca is coz itm;s paying 4 d exemption fees n exams fees...kire sume paid for ar..no need 2 bring out money from own pocket..(who wouldn't love dat,rite?) n same as 4 cima...except that if dftr ngn cima a.s.ap (in a program 4 students called 'cima 1st')--> d subscription feez 4 d 1st year will b waived(wutt??FREE lagik??)...n wuts even more tempting is dat d subsequent years punye subscription paymets will b 50% off!!!(sumer org mmg da giler dh time nih..yg nk mik acca cam dh terbelah bagi hati n interest diorg..wakaka...sape yg xmo free things,kan??hik!!)

so here i am..still thinkin of wut 2 do..n wut 2 pursue...nk wat acca or cima or keje dluh aaaaa?????kompius2...my parents lagila...ade ke suoh kje gomen (government)???since aku dh prac kat ctuh..so i'd rather not la kot kje kat gomen...mmgla sgt byk benefitnyer..like housing loan..computer loans n wut knots...tp..it is also sgt2 typical malay punye environment(not that i m an all-american punye person)..tp agak cam x gemar environment yg lepak2..leweh2...n sgt x bz...sum ppl might call me crazy..but i'm more into a workin environment thats constantly bz+work late hours+meet lots of different ppl n colleagues+u dont even haf d time 2 think whether u hv eaten or not [wakaka..this is 2 much dah kot??=) ] N MOST IMPORTANTLY, A WORKIN PLACE WHERE I DONT HV 2 WEAR ONLY BAJU KURUNGSSSS...huargh..penat je beli mcm2 fesyen...n all those bajus n pants will end up in d closet????

so..2 u guys out there yg nk kasik any opinions...ur most welcome 2 do so...need all d help i can get...now i need 2 settlekan my FAR n ODIT assignments...A.S.A.P!!!!! (huargh...bmulerla episod x tdo malam!!!!) =(

kena tegur nyanyi kat library!!!

2005-09-13T15:31:00.000+08:00

hihi...1 kejadian yg sgt klaka telah berlaku yesterday evening..kat lab library....i wuz bz talkin 2 cidah bout d hantu video yg happened at brunei(do u guys know bout it?ju-on happenings at 1 skool kat brunei..if u guys wanna know more...juz let me know,k)...neways...so biler da abis crite tu.. mcm traser nk nyanyi la kan...so i pon nyanyila lagu 1 in a million...tup2 tgh nyanyi titiber mamat seblah cidah cam tego..."dik,lagu tu mmg sedap..tapi bole x tolong pelan sket??"--hello???aku x nyanyi kuat sgt k??n mcm sgt bengang biler mamat tuh bcakap dgn muke yg sgt kerekkk...hhihi tp seb baik ar dier ckp tu kat cidah...cuz mayb he thot it wuz her voice..hahah...selamat akuu dr termaluu...ekekke..sorie ek cidah??!! =) huh..seb baik x emsem..klu tak.lame dh aku ngorat!! wink2 ;)

1st class after d hols...argh!!

2005-09-12T13:39:00.000+08:00

sume pon nk jerit kan aku nih??gumbira jerit..sdih pon jerit..hihi..erm..skg tgh bertekun2 kat library nak menyiapkan 3 assignments skaligus(buleh kaa??)...ader AIS..FAR...AUDIT..n lastly (but d most difficult kot??) RISK....huargh lagi!!bole plak tlupe nk bwk disket..haru2...oopss..mcm kuno giler ek..skg org x pkai disket dh kot..thesedays punye 'diskets' r called thumbdrives...haha...:)

(hm...still thinking biler ek nk beli kabel kat kdai samsung..barula gambo2 dlm my hp leh ditransferkan ke blog inih...hm...bila yaa nk bli????)

blog-fenin lagila...

2005-09-10T15:19:00.000+08:00

eyy pnat dah aku try nk tuka kaler n tulisan..nk tgk mane yg plg fit my blog...huargh..pnat!!! ahernye..came 2 d conclusion dat xyah nk set apape font or size..juz follow d default setting..sonang..abih ceghiter...shera??biler nk answer my persoalan kat frenster psl mende alah bloggingz nehss????ko da bkak msg frenster lum pompuan???

AIS ASSIGNMENT

2005-09-10T14:50:00.000+08:00

urgh...sgt blur n pening...today dah balik hostel..for d sake of menghadirkan diri 4 ais,odit n risk discussionz...n as usuallah...d PM for ais grup mmg xdtgla kan...hope he'll rot in hell...uisy..jahat sgtla plak bunyiknye ek..tnsen gile...rase cam nk piung2 je...keje xpnahnye nk wat..harapkan org lain n at d end of it dier lak yg dpt nama..as d grup leader..sesuai ke?tak!urgh...cpatla abis asgmt nihss...x larat dh....eventho blur tp still got 2 teruskan gaks...argh!!!!!

TesTinG..TeSTiNg???

2005-09-08T12:00:00.000+08:00

siang td try nk create blog kat friendster..succeeded..tp biler nk edit balik tonite x leh nk bkak plak...huargh..tensen!!pstu cam tringat shera ader blog...n bukan blog frenster,kan??so i tried la creating a new blog kat blogspot lak..so far so gud..hope i'll not b experiencing any extra prob in future..

credits 2 k.iya 4 encouraging me 2 create my own blog..n also 2 my sifu..u know who u r...this is 1 of my efforts 2 bring out d new me...d real me..hope i'll succeed...hik ;)

2005-09-07T22:21:00.000+08:00

hehe...sebagai my 1st pic entry...nih la dier...my bestest fwen kat itm...masuk bulan ni..baru je 3 tahun 8 bulan 7 hari kenai...tp mcm dah share 1 badan la plak ek??? sume pon nk kongsi!! (eh, emotions jer yaa not clothes--of cosla x muat..lol!!) ;) cyg cidah!!

nih plak sape ye??hihi..ni la..a special buddy of mine...hik..(jgn kembang ye mok??) time skola dlu xdela rapat sgt..but lately we became very2 d close...wonder wuts d reason ek??ekeke...cyg chera!! =)