x jadi date...

tgh sgt sedih..dahla x jadi date...now he's been avoiding me...x reply 1 msg pun..n he's not even picking up any of my calls...where did i went wrong??..wuz i wrong when i asked opinions of my frens n sort of asking 4 their permission 2 go on a 3-day date wif my bee??nk slhkan my bro 4 buyin me d topup which had lead me 2 announcin bout d interview i'm goin 4 this sunday2 my frens...n i wuz d FOOLISH one in deciding 2 blab out bout my planned date...if i didnt have d credits at dat point of time msti d date is still gonna b on kan..so nk slhkan my bro plak?haha...very cunning of me...ITS YOUR OWN FAULT...SILLY!!!! owh...n of cosla my frens tu said NO 2 d idea....but then y didnt my bee tried 2 understand my acts of sharing facts n moments of our dates wif my fwenz???instead he sulked n totally cancelled d whole thing off...mcm la i did salah yg sgt besa....then again if i didnt tell bout my so-called date....wud i b happy n contended goin 4 a date by sort-of-lying to my parents??i mean i wont b totally lying...as there wud b an involvement of an official letter....then again....

ntahlah...is it so bad dat i share stories of my precious moments wif my bee wif my fwenz??y cant he just understand dat dats part of me dat i cant stop doin??y cant he just continued d plan as it wuz??didnt he had thot of d assumptions dat my frens wud b sayin way b4 he had laid out d plan 4 me???n now nk cancell d whole damn thing off jus coz i babbled a few words 2 my fwens n he is afraid of wut theyre gonna say??

yeah..maybe i had confused him more when i called him n said dat y shouldnt we jus continue d plan like it shud b......n now he must think of me as a moron...yela..kejap ckp tu..kejap ckp ni....mane 1 ni????but.......doesnt he miss me?doesnt it hurts him dat he wont b able 2 c me??owh yeah...n d next plan of his of coming 4 a bsns deal or trip 2 k.l or s.alam n meetin me jus 4 lunch or a 1-day out will totally work out laa??y d hell didnt he thot of D 2ND PLAN WAYY B4 HE MADE D 1ST PLANNNNN?????!!!!!!even if he is here in s.alam...wud i have a justified enuf reason 2 make mama gv me d prmission 2 go out???n wut...i'm supposed 2 use d alasan of "nk gi itm" again??????same je kan--LYING osoooooooo....

tahla...sgt sedih kot.....wonder when m i gonna b able 2 meet him...just hope dat when d time finally comes...i wont forget how he looks like...........

to shera...i hope u r happy dat i'm NOT going....u won...n i lost...n i mite jus hav d probability of bein single again....gosh....damn....