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why?? why has it been so hard to forget the past?? to forget every single thing that had happened?? to forget all the worse things he did to me..let alone all the sweet moments we shared together...d moments tat i'll cherish forever...urghhh...m hatiing myself for writing n admitting to this..but i just cant handle it...

i hate him..yet i miss him....so much........urghhhh!!!!!! y am i feeling like thissss???!!!!! i cant stand the misery..d loneliness....n when i'm alone somehow all the memories suddenly appear in front of me..makin me even more depressed of the thots "what if i didnt say tat..or wat if i didnt say tat i didnt want to be his guarantor?...and wat wud it be if i'm still wif him until now....sigh...m so sad rite now...n d fact dat i'm seeing all my fwenz getting engaged...getting into new relationships...some of em r even furthering into d 'more serious' stage of their lovelife....n sume pun nak dtg cite kat aku.....huargh....hukuman apekah ini??? karma kahhh????? sedih bangat sih.....

(cat..........jgnla mcm ni......u're feeling THIS depressed juz cuz u dont have anyone YET....trust in GOD, He'll give u someone SUITABLE when the RIGHT time comes, dear....plzzz hang in there!!!!!!!)

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